My desk

The 3 cars at my desk... Boom!! Rushing to the finishing line!! Which car will be the 1st??


4 more days!!!

Busy week

A busy week... hopefully coming to an end.... Fire protection system, the most scary system activated due to unknown causes and wasted so much time in order to normalise back.... 2 weeks with no superior around, carefree, things also still going on fine, this show that the world is still turning even without anyone.. But sometimes wonder will there be any diff if he is around or not coz everything also done / attended by me....

Get to know of a job offering from my frd, the current engineer working there is tendering soon, same job scope, pay offered is much higher but need to do shift work and working alone but monthly working days is only half of the respective month. She is also working there... Should I attempt to go over there?? Haiz... choices is always hard to decide...


6 days left...

"我们确实有如是的优点，但也要隐藏几分，这个叫做涵养"

Finally seen her..

Saw her yesterday on my way for lunch, 1st time face to face after so many years.. Appearance dun seem much different from the past but thinking might not be the same anymore.. we are so near but yet like so far apart, didnt even got the chance to meet each other during all these years... haiz...

Seem like since I knew that I had cleared this year IPPT window, my training is getting lesser and lesser, often due to work committments or other matters that crashed with my training days, coincidence?? Or excuses that I am trying to covering for my laziness?? haha..


9 more days left...

"你看到的不一定是你所看到的，你知道的并不一定是你所知道的"

An Unlucky Monday...

Today is an unlucky day. Complaints received the moment I stepped out of my hse. Complaints after complaints keep me busy the whole day. Manage to find out the fault and rectified the problem by the end of the day. Does that show alone I also can survive?? Till now, my company still looking for a engineer to stand in for my superior, dun think they can find any...

During my tea break at pantry, saw one of the bank staff holding a bouquet happily from her ex-boss, her collegues all envy her that someone out there still remember and send her flowers on her birthday....... Will "she" had the same reaction also??

11 more days!!!

"大多数的人一辈子只做了三件事；自欺、欺人、被人欺"

Heaven or Hell

One day while walking down the street a highly successful Human resources
Manager was tragically hit by a bus and died. Her soul arrived up in
Heaven where she was met at the Pearly Gates by St. Peter himself.

"Welcome," said St. Peter. "Before you get settled in, though, it seems we
have a problem.
You see, strangely enough, we've never once had a Human Resources Manager
make it this far, and we're not really sure what to do with you."
"No worries, just let me in," said the woman.
"Well, I'd like to, but I have higher orders. What we're going to do is
let you have a day in Hell and a day in Heaven and then you can choose
whichever one you want to spend an eternity in."
"Actually, I think I've made up my mind, I prefer to stay in Heaven", said
the woman.
"Sorry, we have rules..." And with that St. Peter put the executive in a
lift and it went down-down-down to Hell.

The doors opened and she found herself stepping out onto the putting green
of a beautiful golf course. In the distance was a country club and in
front of her were all her fellow executive friends that she had worked
with, and they were well dressed in evening gowns and cheering for her.
They ran up and kissed her on both cheeks and they talked about old times.
They played an excellent round of golf and at night went to the country
club where she enjoyed a superb steak and lobster dinner. She met the
Devil who was actually a really nice guy and she had a great time telling
jokes and dancing. She was having such a good time that before she knew
it, it was time to leave. Everybody shook her hand and waved good-bye as
she got on the lift.

The lift went up-up-up and opened back up at the Pearly Gates and found
St.Peter waiting for her.
"Now it's time to spend a day in heaven," he said.
So she spent the next 24 hours lounging around on clouds and playing the
harp and singing.
She had a great time and before she knew it her 24 hours were up and
St.Peter came and got her.
"So, you've spent a day in Hell and you've spent a day in Heaven. Now you
must choose your eternity".
The woman paused for a second and then replied, "Well, I never thought I
would say this. I mean, Heaven has been really great, but I had a better
time in Hell."
So St. Peter escorted her to the lift and again she went down-down-down
back to Hell.

When the doors of the lift opened she found herself standing in a desolate
wasteland covered in garbage and filth. She saw that her friends were
dressed in rags and picking up garbage and putting it in sacks. The Devil
came up to her and put his arm around her.
"I don't understand," stammered the woman, "yesterday I was here and there
was a golf course and a country club and we ate lobster and we danced and
had a great time. Now all there is a wasteland and all my friends look
miserable."
The Devil looked at her and smiled. "Yesterday we were recruiting you,
today you're staff..."

The moral of this story:
Never believe what you see in the company or what they promised you. It
always turns out to be ****

Had steamboat at Marine South last night. Although is a Wed nite, the place is crowded with teenagers. During sec sch days, often go there after competition for celebration even though didnt win any medals, but we still happy as we are the only sec sch that manage to go into the National finals. It is also there, the first time that I sent her home.. The place havent changed much since then but the people/situation is not the same anymore.. Everyone busy with their job... thinking might also be different liao... haiz...

想回到过去试着抱妳在怀里
羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看妳的看的世界 想在妳梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去试着让故事继续
至少不再让妳离我而去
分散时间的注意这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及

想回到过去 思绪不断阻挡着回忆播放
盲目的追寻仍然空空荡荡
灰蒙蒙的夜晚睡意又不知躲到哪去
一转身孤单已躺在身旁


15 days to go!!!!

"太过于欣赏自己的人，不会去欣赏别人的优点"

Love Is All Around

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
The love that's all around me
And so the feeling grows
It's written on the wind
It's everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
You know I love you, I always will
My mind's made up by the way that I feel
There's no beginning, there'll be no end
'Cause on my love you can depend
I see your face before me
As I lay on my bed
I cannot get to thinking
Of all the things you said
You gave your promise to me and I gave mine to you
I need someone beside me in everything I do
You know I love you, I always will
My mind's made up by the way that I feel
There's no beginning, there'll be no end
'Cause on my love you can depend
I got to keep it moving
It's written in the wind
Oh everywhere I go
So if you really love me
Come on and let it show
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it,
Come on and let it show

Weekend Over.....

Another weekend over... 1st part of the weekend seem good, no need to go back to work, can wake up late and the weather is cool coz of raining.. 7 July 07, triple 7, a good lucky day as believed by most of the people.. 777 couples also choose to ROM on that auspicious day.. I believed that luck play a part on a relationship but long term down the road, the trust, patience and acceptance of each other weakness play a more important role..

2nd part of the weekend is a nightmare, from 11pm of the 7th Jul till the nxt day morning, my hp has been keep ringing due to some uncritical alarms from my bank, wake up almost every half an hour to ack the alarms and due to the incompetence of the onsite technician, nothing can be done to solve the problem despite me giving them instruction of solving thru the phone...

These few days havent really touch on my study... Need to buck up liao if not cant get my toilet paper liao.. Worse is my previous job boss is in the same class as me. Kanna suan and look down by him during the 1 mth under him as I am unfarmiliar with the job.. There will be no 2nd time look down by him again!!!

Had a feeling that she might had came across my blog but how true is it, a question mark... Finally understand her last time situation of waiting for the other party and yet not knowing wat the outcome will be...

18 more days!!!

"如果你准备结婚的话，告诉你一句非常重要的哲学名言，你一定要忍耐包容对方的缺点，世界上没有绝对幸福圆满的婚姻，幸福只是来自于无限的容忍与互相尊重"

喜欢

喜欢你的头发 喜欢你的脸颊
喜欢你微笑的时候眼里藏不住的光
喜欢你的害羞 喜欢你的疯狂
想要一天二十四个小时守在你身旁

喜欢开你玩笑 喜欢叫你傻瓜
喜欢吓你一跳的时候看你慌张的模样
喜欢搭你肩膀 喜欢你会怕痒
喜欢趁你没有防备偷袭你的手指甲

想要抱你一下 贴紧我的胸膛
想要告诉你这样下去不是办法
想要把你绑架 想要带你回家
想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒

想要非常认真严肃的承诺地老天荒

思念你令我惊慌 想到你令我膨胀
你的每个笑容都会令我幸福的快爆炸
见你的时候我总是说些傻呼呼的蠢话
令我随时随地濒临疯狂

5th July '07

Had so much unforgettable memories along the road at East Coast Park... I had wanted to look for her but I believed that if fate permits, we will meet again.. Is the decision I make 10 yrs ago a correct one?? Why am I feeling regret now if it is correct?? I had tried letting go a few times, try forgetting her but the memories still come back.. Her late or no reply let me wonder shld I continue to sms or msn her.. sometimes even when I saw her online, I also dun feel like msn her, afraid that it might be another heart dampening outcome... Haiz...

Wat is the motive of life?? Is life getting boring?? or I had lost my direction in life???

22 more days...


"心是最大的骗子，别人能骗你一时，而它却会骗你一辈子"

Padi & Marriage Story

Padi Story
A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later. Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is an even bigger one waiting for him.

Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted!!!!

He ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand. The teacher told him, "...this is love...You keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person...."

Marriage Story
"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.

But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."

The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "This time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get.... this is marriage."

Busy schedule....

Start of my busy schedule for the next 1 year... Mon, wed, sat will be my jogging days... Tues, thurs, sat will be my lesson days... Packed to the max, can keep me occupied and dun have so much free time to think of other things...

Think I finally saw her when I walked pass, 1st time since she start work in the same building 2 months ago.. Fate?? Is it hinting a start or an end?? haiz... anywhere the finale will be in 25 days... Will there be a 2nd part to the show?? Hope so even though feeling tell me the chances is not high...

Today running fail to reach my usual standard, cant manage to complete all the rounds I set for myself.. Mind keep thinking of the phase "Sky is the limit". I think this phase is for people used it to lie to their brain... A thinking person will know it own limit and overdone it will result in some consequences.. Just like those runner believe that they can outrun their physical limit and in the end, they lie down flat forever...

New guy gone again to another site.. A blessing in disguise?? Dun seem he can make it, everything need to teach him like a teacher to a student.. how to survive in this realistic working society... Stop wasting my time....

"U can dun like me but u cant stop me from loving u, although I dun hv a place in ur heart now, but I believe my sincerity will be the key to ur door"

Long, Long Ago

Tell me the tales
That to me were so dear,
Long, long ago,
Long, long ago;
Sing me the songs
I delighted to hear,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.
Now you are come,
All my grief is removed,
Let me forget
That so long you have roved,
Let me believe
That you love as you loved,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.

Do you remember
The path where we met,
Long, long ago,
Long, long ago?
That's when you told me
You would not forget,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.
Then, to all others
My smile you preferred,
Love, when you spoke,
Gave a charm to each word,
Still my heart treasures
The praises I heard,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.

Though by your kindness
My fond hopes were raised,
Long, long ago,
Long, long ago;
You by more eloquent
Lips have been praised,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.
But by long absence
Your truth has been tried,
Still to your accents
I listen with pride,
Blessed as I was
When I sat by your side,
Long, long ago,
Long ago.


25 more days!!

1st day of July

26 more days.

七月已静悄悄地到来... Finally get to rest today after working everyday since 4th June. Last nite had a gathering with my frds, went for a drink. Reach the state of drunk, like the feel of brain been numb but dun like the hangover...

Saw the newspaper that one of the member from Soul has commit suicide, suspect is due to r/s.. Wat he write seem to make some sense:
"什么是爱？是牺牲？是要快乐？是要天天在一起？是对方快乐就什么就可以？是伟大？是无奈？是快乐？还是痛苦？是要有个伴？让你在最孤独的夜里心灵上有个依靠吗？是可以培养的吗？有时间性的吗？

走在漫长的道路上，你懂你要的是什么吗？你能用手触碰它吗？梦想是什么吗？还是你要放弃，让这完美的梦想，永远都不会有实现的一天？

尘世间最痛苦的事是什么？可能什么都不是。只是自己的一片痴心妄想。"

"走在这下着雨的道路上，你真正在等的是什么？

什么才算是真的拥有？心灵上的？肉体上的？可能都不是这些。。可能你什么都没有拥有过。

凡事只要已尽力，所该说的话都已说完，是否就已足够了？什么才是终点，如果你一直以来都不知道什么是起点。事实上，可能一直以来都不曾有过起点。又哪来的终点？就算有终点，你又怎能知道那里是终点呢？是由天来定，还是由人来定？"

Watching an old local drama "新兵小传" re-air on weekend afternoon, not bad, make me remember back my army days.. haha.. but glad all is already over..

"当你手中抓住一件东西不放时，你只能拥有这件东西，如果你肯放手，你就有机会选择别的。人的心若死执自己的观念，不肯放下，那么他的智慧也只能达到某种程度而已"