Comfortability and Interest
If u were to do something, is interest, comfortability important? If the interest and comfortability is not there, will u continue to do it?
At first, I thought the 2 factors are not important as I believe u will eventually struggle to the shore even if u dunno how to swim or if the rewards is good, u can chiong ur guts out for it.
But time tells me my thinking is wrong, proven in 2 different situations. First, it is during my 2nd job. Thought the pay will be an incentive for me to look forward to but only the 1st week and I found it is hard to survive without any interest in it, even a min seem to be as long as a hour. Not more than a month, I resign to my fate and tender. Second, is my bachelor course, thought got exemption, then I choose this course. Also I heard the enroll officer say that it consist half construction half services installation, but after I enrolled, I found out is almost all on construction. Not related to my work and my diploma and to make things worst, the uni come out with a new system structure which is harder for distance learners and more time consuming, even the lecturer is puzzled of me choosing this course. So decided to withdraw from it as my interest in it is not high and divert my concentration to work and find a more related course to further my knowledge.
These few days, me in process to take over the site, no major hiccups. The new guy seem to vying for it. Maybe is because I am not ambitious or I still inexperience, I only feel neutral about it. But anywhere if it is meant for me, I will just take. Treat it as an oppounity for me to learn more stuff.
"是非和得失，要到最后的结果，才能评定"
This weekend hard to pass, alarms, alarm and alarms. Got technician = no technician, everything still need to settle by myself. That the problem of having a foreign technician. Started to have doubts in their working ability.
Whole wkend studying australia economics, till now, i still dunno anything. OMG. Assignment still dun have much progress, dunno how to continue.. Haiz... Stress.. Worst, my boss decided to throw the site to me, asking me to handle it... Is it I suay, previous job also the same, go there for 6 mths, then the whole site belong to me, now this job also same, 6 mths and the site going to be mine again... It can be seen as an oppounity to perform or an oppounity to "misfortune".
"你希望掌握永恒，那你必须控制现在"
1st step
Finally took one step forward in my 1st assignment. Dunno if the direction I heading is correct as no one to turn to help. That the problem for been a distance online student. Saw many distance students complaining to the lecturer but seem like they arent doing anything to change the situation.
Gossip with my collegue from other site and found out that actually from his photo already left a negative impression on them and those old birds had already tested on his knowledge and found out only so~so~ nia despite his mighty stories telling me everyday. My collegue say one sentence very good "A worker can never succeed when he dunno how to be humble". Now beside been a bodyguard, he double up as a role of advisor, advising me how to write email.. wth... When I just start work at this site, everything I pick up on my own, he been a more experienced guy than me, expect me to spoon feed him with all the info, start to suspect if he know how to read the as-built drawing..
Trying to do as below, succeed or not is a ?
海浪滔滔我不怕 掌起跎兒 往前划
"你有你的生命观，我有我的生命观，我不干涉你。只要我能，我就感化你。如果不能，那我就认命"
Xiao Ai
Saw today 联合晚报, headline is a young gal, xiao ai, taking daring photos of herself. Dunno what is youngster thinking nowadays. Seem like they are too free, doing all sort of stuffs just to attract public, media attention. What the world has become??? Is this society lesser conservative or youngster getting more open minded?
http://xia0aii.blogspot.com/
"The greatest danger for most of us is not that we aim too high and we miss it, but we aim too low and reach it."
Ren Ci Charity Show
Saw many articles regarding that 明仪法师 getting 5 digit pay and driving merc, using the donation like ex-NKF. Whether is it the truth, no one knows but people out there just can use their eyes to see, he can just dont perform and sit there and enjoy the show and after the event go and count the donation. But he just play his part and hope to gain more donation for the patients. People just cant because of the NKF incident and assume this also the same. And just a reminder, is the NKF ex-management at fault, u cant deny the fact that there are patients inside NKF that need your donations for medical care... same goes to 仁慈...
Saw a newspaper article saying that some public commenting that the performances by celebrities is easy and not exciting. Does these people actually go and do their part to charity before starting to comment?? Or do they go and try doing the same performance before commenting?? They are not been forced to do it, they only do it for charity, so people should just stop giving negative feedbacks even when the performance is not to your liking.. U can choose not to watch or donate, no one is forcing u...
"恶口永远不要出自于我们的口中，不管他有多坏，有多恶。你愈骂他，你的心就被污染了，你要想，他就是你的善知识"
19 Mar 07
Time pass so fast... My study only progress a little bit, assignment still havent start, 11 days left... Economy so hard to study, wonder how the economist went thru it, mayb I not the type to analyse the graph and predict the future. Haiz..
If my boss really to post out, cant imagine how am I going to survive with the new guy. A pain in my ass. He made me seem like I am a criminal inside the office, monitor closely what I do, what site I surf, what I type, even my lecture notes, he also want to see. If not, he will keep telling his mighty story which I am not interested in. Wondering if he feel bored whole day sitting there doing nothing.. Already hinted him he can walk round the office alone instead of following or sitting beside me, but the outcome still the same, still acting like my "bodyguard".
We come across a topic, he asked me how long I got my hp, I tell him this no. I had been using from 9 yrs ago till now. Then he say he got his 十几年 already. But I remember when I got this no. that time, it is still pager era, hp is not common. Then he say he got it earlier than mine. Anywhere to cut it short, no matter what I say, he always want to be greater, better than mine (eg. previous work appointment, hp, etc). As usual, I just bo chup and let him win.
"当你明天开始生活的时候，有人跟你争执，你就让他赢，这个赢跟输，都只是文字的观念罢了。当你让对方赢，你并没有损失什么。所谓的赢，他有赢到什么？得到什么？所谓的输，你又输到什么？失去什么？"
Another week...
Went to watch the movie "300" with the same old gang. Find the movie not bad but a little bit too 夸张, imagine 300 people killing thousands of enemies without suffering any casulties, pushing the elephants off the cliff, etc... A little bit of unrealistic... But the bond between the spartans make the movie worth it.
Living in central is really convinent, u can either choose to walk or take any bus home in midnight rather than wasting money to take cab home. But there is a price to pay, the aging population of the neighbourhood..
A little updates of the past 1 week: same old stuff, busy with study and work...
A new guy post to my site today, telling me or rather trying to show off his past experience and keep shooting me all the aircon mechanical ventilation technical questions which he specialise in... as if I care about his past, worst, disturbing me to study.
"有缘千里来相会，无缘相遇不相逢"
