许玮伦死了...

Heard of the death of 许玮伦 on the news yesterday. What a pity, she died young at a age of 28 after battling with 死神 for 43hrs. Watched her drama 2 years ago. Since young, she is been groomed as a 音乐气质美女 by her mother, she go to music lessons and etiquette classes and with her beautiful looks, she is just like a angel that melt guys heart.

A few days ago, the korean singer, U-nee, hung herself and died at age of 25, due to stress from hate mails. Just a little more about her, she is famous for her sexy dance move and recently been in the news for mistaken as the mongolia model that been exploded to death in KL.

Life is so fragile. Seeing this news make me feel a urge of doing things that I wanted to do but still havent done. Should I continue to contact her?? Or should I just move on?? What in her mind, can drop me a hint? if she happen to pass by my blog...

"Don't fear failure so much that you refuse to try new things. The saddest summary of a life contains three descriptions: could have, might have, and should have."

22 more days to CNY!!

Some pictures taken from Chinatown lighting ceremony on 27 Jan 07

IPPT!!!!!!!

The 1st week of ICT had ended!!!!! Happy with my IPPT result especially in SBJ and 2.4km, my weakest link. 1st time doing IPPT using electronic equipment, army nowadays is quite advanced. 1st jump I jumped 216, happy like mad even though it just the passing mark. 2nd jump I hit 221 but fall back... Pass all the 4 static station and left the last is the 2.4km station, the route is new to me plus the timing I got from my self 2.4km running (around 12.20min) make me feel 50/50 of passing. Anywhere just give it all out, run 2 rounds around Tanjong Gul camp and clock a timing of 11.41min, best timing since ORD.. Also noticed that only a handful belong to Cat X, does that mean I am 1 of the youngest in the unit??

"Life's greatest accomplishments are those that at first seem impossible."

Handphone

简单就是美, quite true. Been using my old no camera handphone since the start of ICT due to security reason. At first, not quite used to the simple function but after a few days, find simple also a beauty. As long as the phone can fulfill it main function of calling and sms, then there will be nothing wrong of using it, other functions will be a privilege. Come to think of it, I had changed a numerous of handphone since I start using it 9 years ago.
From the oldest: Ericsson 318, 688, 768, N6110, Samsung GD60, N8250, N3310, N8310, N6610, N6230, N-series N70, N80.
12 handphones in 9 years..... provided I remember correctly

ICT as usual.. expected comms screw up during the exercise.. putting the wrong people at the wrong appointment.. IPPT tomorrow, hope it will be a pass.

"One step at a time is enough for me. Impatience is simply a way of beating yourself up."

24 Jan 07

Throughout my nsf life, I never met with a provost check but during ICT, so suay, provost suddenly come and do a routine check. Luckily I manage to smuggle my mp3 player through, sometimes I find it funny that even mp3 player is not allow in camps. They also dont allow camera phone and yet the outside market are producing phones that camera has become a necessary feature, contradicting... The ICT is so far quite smooth except for the usual hiccups. ICT let me learn a phase "即来之,则安之", which I still trying to do it. Life is also like this, u cant force things to happen in your way, u can only hope it will happen that way and no matter which way, u also had to accept it, so worrying and think too much is of no use in the initial stage.

"We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have a the life that is waiting for us."

Butterfly

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further.

So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

"Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If nature allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!"

ICT

1st day of ICT, as usual, my unit is cock up, spend most of the time waiting instead of doing stuff. Catch up with those familiar yet no contact faces, ICT has become like our yearly gathering, too bad my batch people all post to different units. Already know this ICT is quite "siong" when I heard got bunks for us but luckily stay in is not compulsory. Later in the afternoon, another bad news come, this exercise will be 6 days outfield and weekends will be burnt as 1st day exercise fall on saturday. Is it too much for a ns infantry brigade to fight a active elite brigade and 6 days outfield???

Worst is I will miss the 绝对superstar grand final... ~!@#$%^&*

Continue to watch 1 litre of tear (7.5 episode liao). A great touching drama!!

"The real secret of patience is to find something to do in the meantime."

Cant Sleep....

Cant seem to sleep even though is 1am now. Wonder why? Nervous about tomorrow ICT? (Is later part of today) Cant be, since it not my 1st ICT, must be just now I had a nap. Time pass so fast, already 1 year, my last ICT still so fresh in my head.

Weekend gone like a bullet train. I still cant figure what direction am I heading to. Have the urge to do certain things but at the same time something seem to holding me back. Mix feelings, undecisive am I, need someone to decide for me and show me the road, I rather be a follower instead of a leader...

As days passed, older I getting and at the same time, my circle of friends seem getting smaller. Common in all the people or just me??

"Good friends are like stars. You don't always see them, but you know they are always there."

项链

男孩和女孩是一对青梅竹马的恋人。
有一天，男孩女孩牵着手去逛街。当经过一家首饰店门口时，女孩一眼看见了摆在玻璃柜中里的那条心形的金项链。女孩心想：我的脖子这么白，配上这条项链一定好看。
男孩看见了女孩眼中的那依依不舍的目光，他摸摸自己的钱包，脸红了，拉着女孩走开了。
几个月后，女孩的20岁生日到了。
在女孩的生日宴会上，男孩喝了很多酒，才敢把给女孩的生日礼物拿出来，那正是女孩心仪的那条心形的金项链。
女孩高兴地当众吻了一下男孩的脸。
过了半晌，男孩才憋红着脸，搓着手，嗫嚅地说：“不过，这、这项链是……铜的……”
男孩的声音很小，但客厅里所有的客人都听见了。
女孩的脸蓦地涨得通红，把正准备戴到自己那白皙漂亮的脖子上的项链揉成一团随便放在了牛仔裤的口袋里。
“来，喝酒 ！”
女孩大声说，直到宴会结束，女孩再也没看男孩一眼。
不久后，一个男人闯进了女孩的生活。男人说，他什么也没有，只有钱。
当他把闪闪发光的金首饰戴到女孩身上时，同时也俘虏了女孩那颗爱慕虚荣的心。
他们很快便在外面租了一间房子同居了。男人对女孩百依百顺，女孩暗暗庆幸自己在男孩和男人之间的选择。
对于女孩来说，那真是一段幸福的日子。
但是好景不长，在女孩发现自己怀孕了的同时，也发现男人失踪了。
当房东再一次来催她缴房租时，她只得走进了当铺，把自己所有的金首饰摆在了柜台上。
老板眯着眼睛看了一眼说：“你拿这么多镀金首饰来干什么？”
女孩一下子愣住了。
接着老板的眼睛一亮，扒开一堆首饰，拿出最下面的那条项链说：“嗯，这倒是一条真金项链，值一点钱。”
女孩一看，这不正是男孩送她的那条假金项链吗？
当铺老板把玩着那条心形的项链问：“喂，你打算当多少钱”
女孩忽然一把夺过那条项链就走了。

这一次还有谁 能够陪在身边不会累...

"这一次还有谁 能够陪在身边不会累..."
After tonight, there will be 2 more happy person in this world. They can finally realised their dream of releasing their 1st album. This world is balance, got winner, there will also had loser, but bear in mind, "Lose doesnt mean anything and win doesnt mean everything". This is what I gained after winning and losing so many times. Losing is ok if u had done your best, been able to go into the competition is already not easy and to win is even harder. All competition can only have a winner, maybe those that lose will feel better if they think like this. 自我安慰...

Going for ICT next week, thought I can pass these few days peacefully but often the opposite will happen. Yesterday received a arrow from the client boss, think he wanted to test me, then I play along, act a bit blur, stress, kan cheong. Manage to settle it in the end with the help of my contractors. "Good HR is needed for smooth running of projects, assignments"

Today he shoot another more powerful arrow, too bad he is not cupid, if not I sure happy like mad. The arrow pose a small challenge to me, dateline is next weekend but I had completed 95% by end of today. Heard my big boss scare I cant do it, call the "archer" if he is sure to task me for the job. Now left is my contractor side, hope he can produce the result tomorrow. 尽人事，听天命

Time for 绝对Superstar result!!!!!!!!!!!!

"You can do anything if you have enthusiasm."

绝对Superstar final!!

绝对Superstar final!!! One year already passed since the last superstar competition, fast.... If nothing goes wrong, Diya and Daren will be the winner for their respective group even though I support Carrie. Outside is saying that the grand winner will be from the male side, had to admit that the male side singing and 舞台魅力 is better than female side but dont forget that grand final is fully depend on people voting, so I predict Diya will be the black horse to be the overall winner as her 粉丝团 spending power is much more powerful. A good example is last year 绝对Superstar, remember how a competitor can sing out of the 制定歌曲主题, yet can still win the competition.. Moral of the competition: "唱得好并不代表一切"

Although Carrie is not a hot favourite, but she still can perform so well, 精神可嘉. The last song "触摸" she sing is the best, totally bring out the feelings. And the 1st song she sing "写一首歌" remind me of her again.

Remember the songs she like to sing is 写一首歌, 你怎么舍得我难过, 别怕我伤心, 有时候, 胆小鬼, etc... Often hear her singing last time, will I still be able to hear her sing again??

"Many times we convince ourselves we love... only to realise on hindsight, it was merely loneliness, familiarity, and the fear of letting go.."

Touching life story.....

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. Formany months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted.

As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box.

Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily, he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy
book.

Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had
passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care things. When he arrived at his father's house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart.

He began to search his father's important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he read those words, a car key dropped from an envelope taped behind the Bible.

It was the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words...PAID IN FULL.

How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not packaged as we expected?

Singapore Night View

A photo from the sea....

15 Jan '07

Top of buildings cover in the clouds.. remind me of genting....


A view from my workplace... Nice view but everyday see also sian...

Another day passed... Did nothing much. Lion dance competition at chinatown these 2 days, injecting some life into the area since the closure of the markets for renovation. The competition is competitive, once u make a mistake, u are out of the race for the top. Remind me of my last time competition training, 台上三分钟, 台下十年功. Train like mad but everything is paid back when I won the race.



Shift my workatation yesterday, nearer to big boss area. Do everything also need to be more alert. Time to sleep... Another start of the week again..

"It is easier to be wise for others than for ourselves."

DiNnEr AnD dAnCe

Last night attended my 1st company dinner since I come into this society for 2 years. Last year, my ex-company dinner is only for those old birds, so I am not invited to go even though I had been working for them for 1+ year. My current company invited all to go even those fresh joiner that had only been around for only 1 month plus. Does this conclude that current company benefit is better?? I guess so..

Quite an enjoyable night but the place is again RTC.. Think I had been going there 2 times in 3 weeks, 1st time is my bunk mate wedding.. The food is quite within my prediction, a 8 course dinner, nothing surprising. Theme for the night is retro, so every guys need to wear a retro tie and gals with a hairband on her head. Saw many unknown faces as I am station at site and seldom went back to main office. A gal at my table got long service award but she dun seem like she had been working for 10 years, look and behave like early twenties only. Although my table lose in the games but I think we had our revenge in drinking red wine. Me alone already drink around 6 glass and the gal next to me (whom I mention earlier on) also around the same. Keep asking the waiter for 1 to 1 exchange when she saw empty glasses, luckily I am trained in drinking, so not a big problem to me. Haha.. The night ended with everyone got a lucky draw prize and a standard sentence by every company: "Continue to work hard for the coming year"

"What you will do matters. All you need is to do it."

雨中的纸鹤

男孩和女孩初恋的时候﹐男孩为女孩折了一千只纸鹤﹐挂在女孩的房间里。

男孩对女孩说﹐这一千只纸鹤﹐代表我一千菪囊狻?


那时候﹐男孩和女孩分分秒秒都在感受着恋爱的甜蜜和幸福。

　　后来女孩渐渐疏远了男孩。女孩结婚了﹐去了法国﹐去了无数次出现在她梦中的巴黎。

女孩和男孩分手的时候﹐对男孩说﹐我们都必须正视现实﹐婚姻对女人来说是第二次投胎﹐我必须抓牢一切机会﹐你太穷﹐我难以想象我们结合在一起的日子……

男孩在女孩去了法国后﹐卖过报纸﹐干过临时工﹐做过小买卖﹐每一项工作他都努力去做。

许多年过去了﹐在朋友们的帮助和他自己的努力下﹐他终于有了自己的一家公司。

他有钱了﹐可是他心里还是念念不忘女孩。

　　有一天下着雨﹐男孩从他的黑色奥迪车里看到一对老人在前面慢慢地走。

男孩认出那是女孩的父母﹐于是男孩决定跟着他们。

他要让他们看看自己不但拥有了小车﹐还拥有了别墅和公司，让他们知道他不是穷光蛋﹐他是年轻的老板。

男孩一路开慢车跟着他们。雨不停地下着﹐尽管这对老人打着伞﹐但还是被斜雨淋湿了。

到了目的地﹐男孩呆了﹐这是一处公墓。

他看到了女孩﹐墓碑的瓷像中女孩正对着他甜甜地笑。

而小小的墓旁﹐细细的铁丝上挂着一串串的纸鹤﹐在细雨中显得如此生动。

　　女孩的父母告诉男孩﹐女孩没有去巴黎﹐女孩患的是癌症﹐女孩去了天堂。

女孩希望男孩能出人头地﹐能有一个温暖的家﹐所以女孩才做出这样的举动。

她说她了解男孩﹐认为他一定会成功的。

女孩说如果有一天男孩到墓地看她﹐请无论如何带上几只纸鹤。

男孩跪下去﹐跪在女孩的墓前﹐泪流满面。

清明节的雨不知道停﹐把男孩淋了个透。

男孩想起了许多年前女孩纯真的笑脸﹐男孩看的心就开始一滴滴往下淌血。

　　这对老人走出墓地的时候﹐看到男孩站在不远处﹐奥迪的车门已经为老人打开。

汽车音响里传出了哀怨的歌声﹐“我的心﹐不后悔﹐反反复复都是为了你﹐千纸鹤﹐千份情﹐在风里飞……”

一公升的眼泪

看了第三集的“一公升的眼泪”，觉得生命真的很脆弱，命运真的很残酷。十五岁的Aya绝症恶化了，有了明显的症状。如果你是Aya，你会选择勇敢面对病情，还是选择逃避？我会没有勇气去接受这残酷的事实，选择逃避，装作一切都没发生过。当Aya的父母得知她有了这种不治之症，对她更关怀备至。我觉得这样做会使得Aya更加难受，更舍不得离开她所熟悉的家庭，这个世界。相信每一位病人都不希望身边的人因为自己的病，憔悴的模样而感到悲哀，沮丧。如果是我，我宁愿大家不要因为我有病而迁就我，让我，最好就跟以往一样，也许这样我会觉得比较好过些。每个人都不知下一分钟会发生什么事，所以大家要好好地珍惜跟家人，朋友，情人之间的时间，不要等到失去了再感到可惜。

"失去并不是一切都没有了，最少在心里还有一个回忆 "

灰色的玫瑰花

男孩失恋了，女孩选择了别人。他好不甘心，每一天都沉迷在烟酒之中，荒度着生命，对他来说，这个世界已没有意义，生命早已失去了活下去的理由，除了痛苦，再也找不到别的什么了。

就在这个时候，上帝出现了，不知是因为同情，或者是怜悯。“你有什么愿望吗？”上帝问。

“带我到一个没有情的地方吧，我愿用自己的一生来换取一个月的时间。这个世界，已再也没有我存在的理由。”男孩沮丧地说。

“好吧。”上帝考虑了一下：“确实有这样一个世界，不过我也可以给你一个机会。”

“什么机会？”

“当你想要回来的时候，只要在这一个月内，让一个女子对你说‘我爱你’，那么你就可以返回这里。”

“我不会想要回来的。”男孩说。他笑着闭上了眼睛，迎接着那个新的世界，那个他自认不会再痛苦的世界，也不会再有爱的世界。

这个世界是灰色的。这是男孩的第一个反应，眼前的一切都没有色彩，但这或许正是男孩想要的世界吧。不会再痛苦了。于是，男孩就这样住了下来，平静的接受，平静地等待着死亡。

直到那一天，平静却被打破了，他看到了那个女孩，那个与他深爱着的女孩有着极其相似的相貌，甚至连声音，连习惯，连性格都如此相似的人，他愣住了，知道自己逃不开了，不管自己呆在任何的地方，无论是曾经的世界，或者是这个灰色世界，自己永远都深爱着这个女孩，永远都忘不了。他想起了上帝给他的机会，于是告诉自己：“反正是无法忘记对她的感情了，那不要再放弃了，她在那个世界甩了我一次，那我就在这个世界将她追回吧，然后将她带回去。我们一起回去。”

从此以后，男孩每天都会去找女孩，白天去她的花店买一束灰色的玫瑰送她，晚上就站在她的窗台下告诉她自己是多么的喜欢她，每一天都没有变过。可是女孩却从来没有答应过，除了一口拒绝，连犹豫都没有过。男孩不明白，自己绝对不算差，女孩又没有男朋友，为什么不肯答应他？甚至连考虑一下都不曾？莫非她有什么难言之隐吗？

于是，男孩终于忍不住问女孩：“你为什么不肯给我一次机会呢？”

“因为，这里的玫瑰是没有红色的呀。”女孩的回答中并不带任何的感情，却也不像在开玩笑。

男孩却更不明白了，灰色世界之中，永远只有灰色，又何来红色呢？可是，爱一个人，又与玫瑰的颜色有什么关系？如果爱情的价值只是用玫瑰的颜色就可以衡量，那么，他又何必独自痛苦，又何必用一生来换取一个月？他只知道，从认识以来，女孩从没对他笑过，总是冷言冷语，更别说对自己说“我爱你”了，反而自己却在这个本应没有感情的世界之中，越陷越深，不可自拔，为什么？这里不是应该没有痛苦吗？为什么会觉得如此的心痛？莫非，自己被上帝耍了么？用一生的生命，却换来一个月的痛苦，为什么？

男孩狂笑着跑出了花店，独留下女孩一人，没有再回头看，却也因此，错过了女孩脸上的那一份无奈，一份痛苦，一份想要抓住他的冲动，女孩知道，这是不被允许的。

那一天，是一个月的最后一天，男孩躺在床上，等待著自己的死亡。这些日子，他再也没有去找过女孩，想要忘记，却忘不掉。心中不停的浮现出女孩的身影，是无奈，是痛苦，或者，只是对那个女孩的爱呢？不过这些已经不重要了，对一个快要死的人来说，一切都不会显得重要。

房间的门却在这时被推开了，而走进来的人，居然是那个他深爱着的女子，而她的手上，提着一篮已经谢去的灰色玫瑰。他知道，那是他每天送给她的。男孩惊讶得说不出话，“为什么？你为什么会来？”明知女孩并不爱自己，可是心中仍然不免一阵感动。

“傻瓜！”第一次，女孩不再用那冰冷的声音对他说话：“你的期限只有一个月，如果我今天不来，不就是再也见不到了吗？”

“你走吧，我不需要任何人可怜，”男孩的眼中流露出一丝痛苦，居然一直到最后，他还是无法抓住自己心爱的东西：“我的路是由我自己选择的。”

“那么，你后悔过吗？后悔来到这里？”女孩问他。

“后悔。选择来到这里，一开始就是个错误，我仍然无法不去爱上你，无法忘记你，无法不痛苦，也无法让你爱上我！”男孩的声音中隐藏着一份哭泣，可是却没人听得出，除了女孩。

“还不明白吗？再很早以前，我就已经爱上你了呀！”女孩笑了，笑中隐含着一份苦涩，却也带有一份轻松。

男孩不可置信地望着她，好一会儿，突然怒吼：“我说过我是不需要同情的！你根本不需要拿这种谎话来骗我！”

“我并没有骗你呀。”女孩站在那里，望着男孩：“自从一开始，我已经爱上你了，从你买走第一朵灰色的玫瑰开始。”

“不可能的。”男孩摇摇头：“否则，你为什么不早说，而一定要等到今天呢？”

“因为……”女孩凄然一笑：“我想要多和你在一起呀，想要和自己喜欢的人多在一起，在你们的世界，应该没有错吧？”

男孩摇摇头，他不明白，说与不说同在一起有什么关系呢？

“你忘记了你曾经的愿望吗？你要的是一个无情的世界。”女孩停住了，然后露出了她那最美的笑容，她知道，这是男孩一直想要看到的笑容，那是她送给男孩的最后一份礼物：“而在这个灰色世界里，除非是与上帝有过契约之人，像我这样的人，爱上一个人，并对他说那三个字的意义，就代表着生命的终结。”

男孩愣住了，在还没有来得及思考之时，女孩轻轻地对他说：“我不要你死去，所以，我爱你，只有今生，只在这里。”男孩猛地伸出手，想要抓住女孩，但却在风吹起的一瞬间，抓住了一把灰色的沙。灰色的玫瑰花瓣轻轻地飘落，落在他的手上，落在那灰色的沙上。

静静地捏着，紧紧地捏着，男孩终于知道自己犯了多么大的一个错误。他轻轻的用刀划开自己的手臂，只想用血染红那灰色的玫瑰，但是却看到，即使是自己的血，也已经变成了灰色的了，只是缓缓地渗入那细细的灰沙之中。

“你后悔当初的决定了吗？”上帝总是来得最迟的一人。

男孩默然的抬起头，望着他，点点头，又摇摇头：“原来，最棒的世界还是原来的那一个呢！只因为，不管有多么的痛苦，那里，至少还拥有希望呀！”他说，望着那灰色的花瓣，却笑了，这是他自从失恋以来的第一个笑容。

“是吗？现在她已经对你说过我爱你，你可以回去了。”上帝笑着准备送他回去。

“已经不用了。因为，我并不后悔来到这里，不后悔当初的选择，如果要我再选一次，我还是会来。”望着手中的细纱与花瓣，“我的心，已经遗落了，回不去了。”

男孩站起来，问上帝：“可以给我一朵红色的玫瑰吗？”

“你忘了吗？灰色世界是不能有红色的。”

“是吗？看来我真的要求得太多了。”望着墙上的时钟，男孩将手中的细沙捏得更紧了，还有那灰色的玫瑰花瓣。

时钟敲了12下，一切都不再存在了，只剩下随风飘动的细沙。远处飞来一张破纸，隐约地现出了当天的新闻。没有人知道，那里曾发生过什么。只是不知在什么时候，在墙角的沙堆之中，竟生出了一支红色的玫瑰，那样的鲜红，就像血一样……

Am I changing? When I first come to this company to work, cant used to after 6pm still inside office. But recently, after 6pm still inside office become part of my daily routine, don't feel anything special, got used to it. Last time paid me to work OT, I still need to consider as my thinking is "I prefer freedom to working OT even though I got paid for it". During my next ICT, there is a major shutdown going on overnight at my workplace and is like 22 hours of OT and the thing is I actually feel a little pity that I missed it due to my ICT. OMG!! Is that the real me? Had my thinking changed to suit the society?? I cant believe it..... So is it better or worse that my thinking had change with the society (to "chiong" OT)??
Just to deceive myself, maybe I feel pity is because I lose a oppounity to gain experience from the shutdown and not the money I can get from the OT.. Haha... Is this the so call think positively??
30 more mins to knock off.... Yeah!!! Counting down.....

一个流星的故事

缘使得那个男孩和那个女孩成为同学并坐到一起来。他们很谈得来，很要好。在一起很开心。那个女孩虽然不很美丽，但很善良，有一颗很美的心。

那个女孩很喜欢花，尤其百合。于是在那个男孩的心底总有心愿：要在那女孩子生日那天送她一束很美丽很美丽的百合。攒着这个愿望他好幸福地过了大半年。终于等到那一天来到了。在那个女孩生日的那天清晨。很早很早就守候在花店的门口。买了一束结着露水很美丽的百合。他在心里编织着那早已构想过千万遍的情节。在月花下，烛光中，让她闭上眼睛后，睁开眼一束好美丽好美丽的百合盛开在她眼前。然后对她说：“让我走进你的世界。”她那美丽惊喜的样子。

然而浪漫像一只被猎人盯着的小鸟总逃不脱现实的子弹。一个男孩送花给一个女孩是需要很大的勇气的。那个男孩积蓄了大半年的勇气就在面对她的一刹那崩溃了。放在包里的花始终没有拿出来，直到望尽她回家的背影？但那男孩对自己说：“明天，明天我一定会做到的。”然而，第二天他又用同样的话欺骗了自己。但他始终在等那一天的到来。

但是做梦也没想到的是，上天竟如此的残酷。他等不到那一天了。那个女孩在一天上学的路中被城市汹涌的车流吞噬了。就在她生命的最后一个晚上，那个男孩拿着那束百合想要送给她。病房的门口他没有进去。他感觉那苍白苍白的脸雪白雪白的墙很冷很冷。

那晚没有星光 没有月亮，夜色很凄凉。那个男孩没有回家，他拿着那束百合花坐在医院门口。他总相信小时候外婆讲的那个美丽的童话。当流星划过时许一个愿。愿望就会实现。他在等候那个流星，要许一个愿望。那晚他眼都没有眨一下的等了一晚上。但那颗流星始终没有出现。第二天清晨，那个女孩就走了。那束百合也凋谢了。

那个男孩很伤心很伤心。仿佛这个世界一下子变得暗淡起来。他无法面对，他总生活在那些美好回忆中。他总强迫自己去相信老师讲的那个美丽的谎言：“她转学了，到了一个很远很远的地方去了，她至今生活的很好很愉快。”

每个星夜，那个男孩都在苦候那颗流星，跟人讲述这个流星的故事。当别人听了难过的时候。他都会笑着说这是个编造的故事，当别人信了不难过了。他却背过脸拭去淌下的泪。

Today dunno I eat what miracle pill. Run for 7km, still not tired, one of my most satisfied run in 2007 or should be after my ORD. If I can run like this in all my running sessions, getting back to or close to my NS condition, shouldn't be too much problem.

Am I expecting too much?? During a coffee break today with me and other staff (all 30+), we come across a topic of salary. I notice that 2k+ is quite common and 3k is consider high.. So for my age, qualification and experience getting a 2k pay is consider reasonable?? But I dun seem to satisfy with it..

"Remember that life's most treasured moments often come unannounced."

8 days has passed in 2007... Seem like most people has set some goals/objectives to achieve for this year. I belong to the minority that had not set anything as I still at the crossroad junction, in front of me is mist, dunno which direction I am heading to. U can set as many goals as u want but whether to achieve it is another story.

I am not myself, maybe is not a choice since I am in this working society. I dun like entertaining but everyday still had to entertain. Even when my big boss say wrong, I still need to say is correct. When he say a lame joke, I still had to laugh... Sometime I will "siam" from him to escape from engaging a soundless conversation with him. What to do....

"每个人都有自己喜与不喜欢的人。你不需要勉强自己去讨好每个人。尽管做你想做的事，只要你心里知道你的决定是对的，将来就不会因为今天的决定而后悔"

The Window

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour a day to drain the fluids from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed next to the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed would live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the outside world. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake, the man had said. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Lovers walked arm in arm amid flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Unexpectedly, an alien thought entered his head: Why should hehave all the pleasure of seeing everything while I never get to see anything? It didn't seem fair. As the thought fermented, the man felt ashamed at first. But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights, his envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour. He began to brood and found himself unable to sleep. He should be by that window - and that thought now controlled his life.

Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence--deathly silence.

The following morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths. When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window, she was saddened and called the hospital attendant to take it away--no words, no fuss. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.

Moral of the story:
The pursuit of happiness is a matter of choice...it is a positive attitude we consciously choose to express. It is not a gift that gets delivered to our doorstep each morning, nor does it come through the window. And I am certain that our circumstances are just a small part of what makes us joyful. If we wait for them to get just right, we will never find lasting joy.

The pursuit of happiness is an inward journey. Our minds are like programs, awaiting the code that will determine behaviors; like bank vaults awaiting our deposits. If we regularly deposit positive, encouraging, and uplifting thoughts, if we continue to bite our lips just before we begin to grumble and complain, if we shoot down that seemingly harmless negative thought as it germinates, we will find that there is much to rejoice about.

Today time pass so slow, as slow as snail... When is my 6pm going to come?? No much thing to do today except to wait...

A courtship is just like a playing soccer. Even when the goal area seem clear, he will still scare if he can score or blast the ball over. He will tend to hold the ball longer and when defenders come, he will regret why he didn't shoot it earlier and now anyhow shoot, hoping it will goal. Maybe it is just me, a person that trying to escape the cruelty of reality and trying to live in the fantasy dream...

The 绝对superstar result last night was quite within my prediction. I think the champion for female and male will be Diya and Daren respectively. Diya singing and popularity can be seen clearly is above the others. The only one that I predict can pose a challenge to her is Carrie. Her singing is also good but her popularity cannot match Diya, so is hard for Carrie to win Diya as this competition mainly depends on popularity... For the male side, all the 3 popularity seem quite equal, but Daren got the voice and the looks, so I think he should to be able to emerge as the winner.

"人生的道路充满着崎岖。生命的旅途也不时时如意。一生走过许多路，有艰难，有后悔，也有快乐。只有一条路我没后悔走过。那就是认识她的那一段路"

你的香味形象

Copy from Dom blog. I had tried and found it quite accurate.

你的香味形象
用直覺來回答下列問題，轉瞬間便知道自己在別人心中是怎樣的一個人了。

(1)你會把自己比喻成哪種花香？
濃郁的花香 -- 去第2題
清淡的花香 -- 去第3題

(2)你會選擇哪種香味的潤唇膏？
水果味 -- 去第4題
薄荷味 -- 去第5題

(3)你會把自己比喻為哪種花束？
紅色系的花束(如紅色/粉紅色/橙色) -- 去第2題
非紅色系的花束(如白色/藍色/紫色) -- 去第5題

(4)你跟意中人首次約會用什麼香? 禲h
帶有甜味的花香 - - 去第 6題
清爽的水果香味 -- 去第7題

(5)你較喜歡哪種味道？
盛夏乾燥的草味 -- 去第4題
雨後濕淋淋的草味 -- 去第7題

(6)玫瑰和百合，你較喜歡哪種香味？
玫瑰 -- 去第8題
百合 -- 去第9題

(7)你剛發現一瓶新款洗頭水，你十分喜歡它的味道，那瓶子的形狀是怎樣的？
圓形 --去第6題
長身形 -- 去第10題

(8)當你情緒低落時，哪種味道最能撫慰你的心靈？
花香 -- 去第11題
森林的味道 -- 去第12題

(9)你在收視超高的劇集中看見一個香包，它是什麼顏色？
紫色 -- 去第8題
紅色 -- 去第12題

(10)市面剛推出了一種全新的香草味雪糕，你的看法是什麼？
相當引人注意 -- 去第9題
不太引人注意 -- 去第13題

(11)下列哪種味道會勾起你懷念的感覺？
麵包香味 -- 去第14題
大自然的味道 -- 去第15題

(12)如果月亮的光輝會發出味道，你嗅到後會聯想起下列哪組形容詞？
刺激/燦爛奪目/香味四溢 -- 去第11題
沉鬱/弧獨/踏實/安靜 --去第15題

(13)你較喜歡哪種香味？
香料 -- 去第12題
茶香 -- 去第16題

(14)你對體味的看法是？
非常討厭 -- 去第17題
如果是自己喜歡的味道就沒有關係 -- 去第18題

(15)你覺得什麼香味較有助提神？
柑橘香 -- 去第14題
薄荷香 --去第18題

(16)你喜歡異性身上有哪種香味？
香水味 -- 去第15題
自然肥皂 -- 去第19題

(17)想起遊樂場，你會想起哪種味道？
牛奶及葡萄 -- 去第20題
甜甜的糖果 -- 去第21題

(18)如果要在房間燃點香薰，你喜歡哪一種形狀的香薰？
三角錐形 -- 去第17題
棒狀 -- 去第21題

(19)你對於香水的看法是？
非常喜歡 -- 去第18題
不算十分喜歡 -- 去第22題

(20)對於嬰兒使用的肥皂系列 香味有什麼看法？
喜歡 -- A 型
不是特別喜歡 -- B 型

(21)你知道自己的味道嗎？
不知道 -- 去第20題
知道 -- C 型

(22)喜歡皮革的味道嗎？
喜歡 -- 去第21題
討厭 -- D 型


測驗分析

A. 你是屬於水果香形象

你充滿自由愉悅的氣息，總是沉溺左遊樂場當中，像個天真無邪的孩子。有你在的地方，整個氣氛都會興奮起來， 所以你是聚會中不可或缺的人物。

雖說你個性開朗，受到大部份人的喜愛，但別人一般認為難以跟你成為親密好友，即是說，你給人的印象只是個搞 笑能手。有些人覺得你愛玩弄別人，依賴性又強，所以不太願意親近你。

不過，真正的你其實十分成熟穩重，正因透徹了解你的人不多，所以知己朋友也相當少。


B. 你是屬於東方花香形象

你擁有強烈的自我意識及自己的世界，不會被他人玩弄於股掌之間，會利用自己的力量積極地達成願望，給人有熱 情的印象。你不會跟朋友糾纏不清，再加上給人單獨行動的印象，圍繞在你週遭的人都會覺得你是一個「帶有神秘 色彩的人物」。

「神秘感」有時是相當有魅力的意思，但是人們對於你嚴密的防備以及自命清高的態度，感覺無法輕鬆地與你對談 而覺得你難以應付。甚而變成非必要不跟你接觸，對你敬而遠之的傾向。

真正的你其實是相當溫柔的，但是除非是與你相當親近的人，否則是無法注意到你的優點。


C. 你是屬於草香形象

你擁有非常堅強的意志，不依賴他人，給人獨來獨往的印象。你擁有旺盛的好奇心與豐富的感受性，是個過著知性 生活的現代人。驟看下你是個自命清高，不好相處的人，但是一旦跟你交談後，就知道你很好相處，等到交情加深 之後，就更知道你其實擁有很爽快的個性。

你所擁有的中性化魅力，讓你不論在男性團體或女性團體都大受歡迎，不過你不喜歡讓人看到你脆弱的一面。你外 表上看來也許很冷靜，但實際上卻是熱情如火。

能夠知道你真正本性的人，才能夠跟你天長地久地交往下去。


D. 你是屬於花香形象

你總是給人樂觀、積極和勇於面對困難的感覺，而且溫柔優雅，很懂得為他人設想，給人非常擅長維繫人際關係的 印象。這樣的你讓人感到既堅強又脆弱，尤其是你那關懷體貼的包容力，更讓人覺得你相當有魅力，很值得信賴。

你長期給人認為你是個「拜託做事絕不會拒絕」? 漱h，所以特別容易讓依賴心強、只顧自己利益的人利用。

Determination

In 1883, a creative engineer named John Roebling was inspired by an idea to build a spectacular bridge connecting New York with the Long Island. However bridge building experts throughout the world thought that this was an impossible feat and told Roebling to forget the idea. It just could not be done. It was not practical. It had never been done before.

Roebling could not ignore the vision he had in his mind of this bridge. He thought about it all the time and he knew deep in his heart that it could be done. He just had to share the dream with someone else. After much discussion and persuasion he managed to convince his son Washington, an up and coming engineer, that the bridge in fact could be built.

Working together for the first time, the father and son developed concepts of how it could be accomplished and how the obstacles could be overcome. With great excitement and inspiration, and the headiness of a wild challenge before them, they hired their crew and began to build their dream bridge.

The project started well, but when it was only a few months underway a tragic accident on the site took the life of John Roebling. Washington was injured and left with a certain amount of brain damage, which resulted in him not being able to walk or talk or even move.


"We told them so."
"Crazy men and their crazy dreams."
"It`s foolish to chase wild visions."

Everyone had a negative comment to make and felt that the project should be scrapped since the Roeblings were the only ones who knew how the bridge could be built. In spite of his handicap Washington was never discouraged and still had a burning desire to complete the bridge and his mind was still as sharp as ever.

He tried to inspire and pass on his enthusiasm to some of his friends, but they were too daunted by the task. As he lay on his bed in his hospital room, with the sunlight streaming through the windows, a gentle breeze blew the flimsy white curtains apart and he was able to see the sky and the tops of the trees outside for just a moment.

It seemed that there was a message for him not to give up. Suddenly an idea hit him. All he could do was move one finger and he decided to make the best use of it. By moving this, he slowly developed a code of communication with his wife.

He touched his wife's arm with that finger, indicating to her that he wanted her to call the engineers again. Then he used the same method of tapping her arm to tell the engineers what to do. It seemed foolish but the project was under way again.

For 13 years Washington tapped out his instructions with his finger on his wife's arm, until the bridge was finally completed. Today the spectacular Brooklyn Bridge stands in all its glory as a tribute to the triumph of one man's indomitable spirit and his determination not to be defeated by circumstances. It is also a tribute to the engineers and their team work, and to their faith in a man who was considered mad by half the world. It stands too as a tangible monument to the love and devotion of his wife who for 13 long years patiently decoded the messages of her husband and told the engineers what to do.

Often when we face obstacles in our day-to-day life, our hurdles seem very small in comparison to what many others have to face. The Brooklyn Bridge shows us that dreams that seem impossible can be realised with determination and persistence, no matter what the odds are.

Even the most distant dream can be realized with determination and persistence.

Received an email from University of Newcastle that my application for my Bachelor course is successful and is starting next month. Total there are 15 modules as I direct entry to the 3rd year. Browse through the modules and found most of them are project based, should be able to cope with it. Honours will be my goal although to pass shouldn't be a problem but to score is.

For the next 2 years, I will be packed with study and work, sound quite hard but it also mean I will have lesser time to think about other things... Will my heart be able to do that?? Haha. Dom has decided to move on and leave his troubles to become history. Should I move on also or stay put?? If I were to move on, where can I move to??

"Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. "

Jokes 2

天秤座
父亲对天天说：" 今天不要上学了，昨晚．．．你妈给你生了两个弟弟。你给老师说一下就行了。"
天天却回答："爸爸，我只说生了一个；另一个，我想留著下星期不想上时再说！ "
（聪明、权衡利弊的天平）

天蠍座
蠍蠍刚睡著，就叫蚊子叮了一口。
他起来赶蚊子，却怎么也赶不出去。没法，便指著蚊子说： "好吧，你不出去我出去！" 边说边出了房间，把门使劲关严得意地说：" 哼！我今晚不进屋，非把你饿死不可！"
（搞不懂、不按常理出牌的天蝎）

射手座
射射：" 爸爸，为什么你有那么多白头发？"
爸爸： "因为你不乖，所以爸爸有好多白头发阿。"
射射：…… （疑惑中）
射射： "那为什么爷爷全部都是白头发？"
爸爸：！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……
（喜欢思考的射手）

摩羯座
一天，羯羯跟妈妈上街；走在路上，突然下起雨来。
妈妈拉过羯羯的小手，说："下雨了，快往前跑阿！ "
羯羯慢条斯理地问：" 那前面就不下雨喽！？"
（明白现实懒得改变的摩羯）

水瓶座
瓶瓶问妈妈：" 问什么称蒋先生为『先人』？"
妈妈说： "因为' 先人'是对死去的人的称呼。 "
瓶瓶说： "那去世的奶奶是不是要叫『鲜奶』？"
（天生的另类、脑筋思考永远和常人不一样的水瓶）

双鱼座
爸爸给鱼鱼讲小时候经常挨饿的事。
听完後，鱼鱼两眼含泪，十分同情地问：" 哦，爸爸，你是因为没饭吃才来我们家的吗？"
（富含丰富同情心、不分情况对象的双鱼）

Jokes 1

白羊座
妈妈经常叮嘱羊羊： "穿裙子时不可以荡秋千；不然，会被小男生看到里面的小内裤哦！"
有一天，羊羊高兴地对妈妈说："今天我和小明比赛荡秋千，我赢了！ "
妈妈生气地说： "不是告诉过你吗？穿裙子时不要荡秋千！"
羊羊骄傲地说："可是我好聪明哦！我把里面的小内裤脱掉了，这样他就看不到我的小内裤了！ "
（勇敢直率、敢做敢为的白羊）

金牛座
卖瓜小贩："快来吃西瓜，不甜不要钱！ "
饥渴的牛牛：" 哇！太好了，老板，来个不甜的！"
（持家、想出轨又顾全自己的金牛）

双子座
妈妈叫双双起床：" 快点起来！公鸡都叫好几遍了！"
双双说： "公鸡叫和我有什么关系？我又不是母鸡！"
（自我意识强烈、自行思维的双子）

巨蟹座
公车上，蟹蟹说： "今晚我要和妈妈睡！"
妈妈问道："你将来娶了媳妇也和妈妈睡阿？ "
蟹蟹不假思索：" 嗯！"
妈妈又问： "那你媳妇怎么办？ "
蟹蟹想了半天，说：" 好办，让她跟爸爸睡！"
妈妈： "！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……—"
再看爸爸，已经热泪盈眶啦！
（恋母情结、依恋的巨蟹）

狮子座
狮狮去参加奶奶的寿宴。到了吃寿包的时候，狮狮问：" 我们为什么要吃这种像屁股的寿包？"
众人听了脸色大变。
接著狮狮拨开寿包，看看里面的豆沙，说：" 奶奶，快看！里面还有大便！"
众人晕的晕，吐的吐。
（以自我感受、不怕旁人眼光的骄傲的狮子）

处女座
处处对肚脐很好奇，就问爸爸。
爸爸把脐带连著胎儿与母体的道理简单地讲了一下，说："婴儿离开母体之后，医生把脐带减断，并打了一个结，後来就成了肚脐。 "
处处： "那医生为什么不打个蝴蝶结？"
（好奇心强又追求完美的处女）

Holidays over...

4 days holiday are over, so fast... it seem like just begin yesterday. The next public holiday will be chinese new year which is still quite far from now. 1st working day of 2007, as usual, the office seem empty as most parents took leave for their children 1st day of school. Come to think of it, where is my age group people working at?? I seem to be the youngest in the office I working now...

Channel U is showing another great drama at 10pm. It about plots and schemes on how to get rid of each other and in the process they fall for people that they shouldn't to. 冲上云霄, although is a 40 episode drama, but it dont seem like it has been on tv for 2 months, good things passed fast... From the drama, Sam and Bella is friends but their relationship is beyond the normal friends type, do that really exist in our current society? Is there a gal like Zoe that can accept her bf to have such a close female friend? Fate let them become friends, fate let them become couples.. So when fate will let us be together or we weren't meant to be together in the 1st place??

"Happiness lies for those who cry, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives."

Just watched 满城尽带黄金甲, a major production movie by looking at the number of actors/actress involved and the grand palace + costume. As usual, the 2nd half of the movie is much more exciting than the 1st half. If u like to watch battle scene with troops of army, this movie is best. Jay acting also seem to improve. Relationship also very complicated inside the movie, maybe it is a reflection of the current society...

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs; ask yourself what makes you come alive. And then go and do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive."

别怕我伤心

好久没有你的信
好久没有人陪我谈心
怀念你柔情似水的眼睛
是我天空最美丽的星星
异乡的午夜特别冷清

一个男人和一颗热切的心
不知在远方的你是否能感应
我从来不敢给你任何诺言
是因为我知道我们太年轻
你追求的是一种浪漫感觉
还是那不必负责任的热情
心中的话到现在才对你表明
不知道你是否会因此而清醒
让身在远方的我不必为你担心

一颗爱你的心
时时刻刻为你转不停
我的爱也曾经深深温暖你的心灵
你和他之间是否已经有了真感情
别隐瞒对我说
别怕我伤心

我从来不敢给你任何诺言
是因为我知道我们太年轻
你追求的是一种浪漫感觉
还是那不必负责任的热情
心中的话到现在才对你表明
不知道你是否会因此而清醒
让身在远方的我不必为你担心

一颗爱你的心
时时刻刻为你转不停
我的爱也曾经深深温暖你的心灵
你和他之间是否已经有了真感情
别隐瞒对我说
别怕我伤心

Unconditional Love

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.
"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Happy New Year!!! So past 2006 already become history. Watched the countdown fireworks while I performing lifeguard duty on the boat at Singapore River. The standard of fireworks is improving, this time there were a few kinds of new fireworks and come along with music making a nice theme. A little pity is she is not by my side but I know she is also out there watching. Hope this wish of watching together can come true in 2007..

After finish my work, I went to meet my friend and chat till 4am. On the way walking back to my house bring back memories of the past. Remember there is only 2 times I am still walking at 4am. 1st time is with her at ECP, 2nd time is with my poly mates.

Althought now is 4.46am, sleepiness seem still havent come to me, maybe I am refresh after the shower. Memories flooded my mind, come to think of it, there is quite a number of things that I done with her:
1st time chat with a gal on phone
1st time go out with a gal alone
1st gal I send home
Is this so call fate, destiny???

Think is time for me to enter dreamland and hope to get an answer...

"Love, like a river, will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle."