His favourite song

娃娃的故事

有一个娃娃 咿呀咿咿呀
学妈妈说话啦
鸟儿它要飞 叽喳叽叽喳
喊着离开家啦

门前的老树舍不得呀 窗前的小花舍不得呀
亲爱的妈妈舍不得呀 泪儿已经流下

门前的老树我想它呀 窗前的小花我想它呀
亲爱的妈妈我想她呀 把笑容献给妈妈

Sad.....

Today is the last day that I will be carrying him. Actually 2 weeks ago on 2nd Feb night, due to some mishap, he accidentally knock onto the edge of the table while trying to get some chinese new year goodies, and got a cut on the right eyebrow, resulting 2 stitches. This is also the beginning of him been take care by his family. Keeping the finger cross for this 2 weeks, decision finally came this morning, he will be taken care by his family in the future. The feeling in this 2 weeks quite faded since I didnt see him but it came rushing back stronger when I carried him for a little while just now. Maybe my sixth sense told me that it probably the last time I will be seeing him..... Sometime escaping from reality is better than facing it... I rather dont know the decision even though the chances of him coming back is slim, but at least there is still a small hope. Now I know the decision, my smallest hope is also extinguished....

This is quite sad as he had been with me for 9 months... I will miss the moments:
- the joyful smile
- pulling my leg to ask me to carry him
- the "greeting" when he saw me
- the window shopping that we done together
- the food we share together
- the mischievous snatching of my food
- hitting my laptop to play songs for him
- the afternoon nap we took
- the curiousity of him looking around when at the street
- the mess he created in the whole house, throwing of toys and bears everywhere
- and many many more...

From him, I learnt how to carry a baby, the baby language, how to feed a baby and the patience and attention needed for a baby. I cant say I had fully master it but it will become a part of my life learning process.

People tend not to treasure what they had and only regret when it gone..... Although I understand this statement but I had let it repeated a few times...

"Thanks for the wonderful moments that u had given me, wish u had a happy childhood!!
Good bye......."

Love was here

I can't make peace, nor let go
Because I've seem love truly bloomed
I want to wait, keep waiting
Waiting for that night
I came back from rememberance

The moment you embraced me
I felt like I flew to the sky
When I gradually descended
I was no longer me
I had a dream, I was in a dream

Love was here, it was so beautiful, so strong
Rammed through my live with cheers
Even regret had conceded into a treasured smile
Love was here, it made me complete, made me happy
How could I easily let it go
I don't want to be released, I'm only afraid of missing it
I just want to wait for you to come back to love me

Loneliness is loud, I'm not scared
Because I can only hear the longing for you
The world is very big, it can fit
My little, foolish, stubborn faith

I can't remember whether you had made any promise
It's not important
Either way, I would wait for, wait in the dream for
My most only, most beautiful dream

Love was here, it was so beautiful, so strong
Rammed through my live with cheers
Even regret had conceded into a treasured smile
Love was here, it made me complete, happy
How could I easily let it go
I don't want to be released, I'm only afraid of missing it
I just want to wait for you to come back

If I need to use miracle to call you back
Then let the tear evaporate and come down as snow flakes
Melt in the love with me