30 more days
Wat will happen in 30 days?? It will be a special day to someone!!
Feel like I know but dun seem like I know, feel like dunno but also not exactly.. so I also dunno where I stand... This sat will be another learning day for me, going to steal some skill from an upcoming site doing testing. Also a chance to be more farmilise with the system over there, who noe nxt time I will be the one post to in charge of that site.. No harm anywhere and somemore got buffet, can save $$$. haha.. But hope that the testing dun drag till sunday, if not I will be working since 4th June without any rest day....
"人家怕你，并不是一种福，人家欺你，并不是一种辱"
Orientation Class
Today attended the orientation class, quite surprise of the number of students attending the course.. Heard quite a number of them come from CPGFM, my ex company.. Remember the days I in CPGFM, me is from the team under Security & Commercial division.. Think my team is the youngest in the whole CPGFM and I am one of the youngest to become building manager..
Recently also got 1 ex-CPGFM join my current company.. My superior ask me to guide him along but barely after a day, he take mc for 2 days and fly kite for power shutdown.. Hopeless... Cannot make it... Even my colleague from another site also have the same thinking as me when he station over his site for a week. Think the most 3 months, he will be out.. No one can help a person if he himself dun want to do anything to it..
Watched 9pm ch8 show "幸运生", seem like an interesting drama.. Dun think nxt week will be able to catch it as class starting liao..
"不是某人使我烦恼，而是我拿某人的言行来烦恼自己"
想听的话
慢慢地撤出忧伤
你在转角处等他
能用声高放地唱
我可以整天对你不牵挂
至交爱不会开花
我情书却割舍不下
眼见你爱的是他
却还是学不会摆脱这挣扎
想听的话你说给了他
我的快乐从此蒸发
如果同时爱的代价哪相信
想撒个什么谎
想听的话得不到回答
我却还在独自装傻
回答时我的脸颊好让你看不见
我眼角的变化
Bank power shutdown
23rd June 07 21:00 hrs
Report to work for preparation for my bank building power shutdown, 1st time in charge for the bank power down...
After the power down commence, while doing all sort of checkings, receive an sms, hoping it to be her but truth often hurts, it from another frd, surprise tat someone still know I working at 11pm+... Listening to my mp3 while verifying all the electrical boards, then come across a song, 胆小鬼, very familiar to me.. rem that is one of her fav song during the sec sch days... Juz because she like the song, I bought the CD and lent it to her... think there are also a few other CDs that I bought because of her...
Finally have some free time and start to chat with my manager and collegues, then come across the topic of the people working inside trading floor and understand the dealer team flowchart and released that analyst actually is also quite a stressed and busy job, maybe that is the reason why my msn, sms often no replies... which is my optimistic thinking..
5am, 8 hrs of continuing working already.. everything went on smoothly under control... manage to grab some time to rest, admiring the nite scenery from my L28 bank windows, wondering wat is the outcome if I didnt choose the regret direction...
6am+, saw the 1st light of the day... 9 yrs ago I also saw the same view with her from one of the chalet... Received news that building power will be resuming at 8am, 2 hrs earlier early than the expected time.. Standby and everything change over smoothly from generator supply back to normal supply.. As usual, engineering will have to standby till the IT power back all the PCs and so coincidence, the 2nd phase major restack also fall on the same day and I will have to standby till the User Acceptence Test (UAT) finish then I can leave the office which is estimated to be 5pm.. 20 hours of working, my longest continuous working record... As I am the lead man for this powerdown, I will be the last man from engineering to leave.. haiz....
"不要刻意去曲解别人的善意，你应当往好的地方想"
Down with cold...
Msn with her last nite. Feel like I am more of disturbing her than chatting, why am I having that kind of feeling? Mayb she told me she doing a project in the 1st place...
Down with cold since yesterday, today get more serious after my usual jogging. Cant get sick during this critical period, this weekend will be my extra income weekend. Die die also must get...
Cant understand why some people want u to do something then he go and did it himself, wat the use of asking from the start? Black or white also he say, ask people to change things when it is not incorrect but not to his way of doing, always assume his way is correct.. How to improve when u are forever in his shadow. Nxt wk will be a break from him, coz I will be covering a collegue from other site for a wk.
"世上的事，不如自己意者，那是当然的"
17th June '07
Last nite finally finish 溏心风暴. Know quite a lot of meaningful phase from this drama, saw how united the family bond is and overcoming obstacles together along the way. Somehow I believed this drama got 2 ending, 1 is the 细契 regret and give up the lawsuit which I saw, the other is 细契 continue to appeal after she losed and the Tang property is freezed and temporarily been managed by 3rd party which is incurring a monthly loss and the children side hope that 细契 can give up...
From the drama: No matter how deep the wrong u committed, as long as u willing to repent and even though others might still unable to forgive u, ur family will still be there for u.
A conversation from the last few epi which left a deep impression to me:
甲：你还记得以前的事？
乙：有些事是永远忘不了的...
Yesterday, I been asked for my decision again, am I going over to their company as they are almost going to clinch a FM contract from another bank. By 1st July I had to give them an answer.. Haiz... Decision hard to make...
"我的财富并不是因为我拥有很多，而是我要求的很少"
Standby in office
Watched 溏心风暴 with my mom and bro till 2am last nite, long time never did tat already. Think the last drama we watched together is 浪漫满屋 which is 1 year ago.. Going to watch 1 more episode later on, addicted liao... hahaa!! 5 more episode to go!!!
1am+ still inside office standby for a major restack... my 3rd time inside office at this hour, 4th time will be coming in a week time for power shutdown. For the sake of 向前(钱)看, no choice but hv to work...
孤单的夜里，望着宁静的天空，让我不知不觉又想起了她，想起那晚和她在细雨中的慢步，画面还是那么地清晰。今天看到她在msn online, 聊了几句过后，她说要跟同事去吃晚餐了。
有缘太短暂比无缘还残？
"吃了就一定要拉，人一定要学会随缘放下，否则就会便秘"
14th June 07
Uni internship start liao.. So many interns inside the bank I working in, saw my camp mate is 1 of them. A small world... but if the world really so small, why I didnt even met her once since she start work 1 mth ago in the same building as me... Didnt see her msn online recently, too busy with her job?
Malaysia another robbery cum rape case, 2nd in the week.. Dangerous to travel in malaysia nowadays, cant they juz find some proper stuff to do? Read the newspaper article and the gal victim been rape in order to protect her bf, she seem quite strong, faced the reporters without shedding a tear. When u noe a gal tat had been raped in the past, will u dun mind her past and continue to be with her? Wat if the gal had abortion before? Will it still be the same??
"常以为别人在注意你，或希望别人注意你的人，会生活的比较烦恼"
12th June 07
Busy busy busy.. These words best describle my situation since the first day of June. Last sat just finish another office power shutdown, now preparing for my office power shutdown in 2 weeks time, many paperwork need to be done... Weekend going to burn again to standby for a major restack.. Received news is starting from friday nite...
Busy till no time for my drama, only manage to watch 2 episodes last night, getting nearer to climax liao.. still got 9 more to go... People often regret only after it has passed. If given the chance to go back again, I will not let the oppounity slipped by... I thought in my eyes only got tat gal but actually deep in my heart I had already chosen the other gal whom had went through memorable events with.. only when separated, time will tells...
Recent training had seem to make a slight improvement to my 2.4km running. Manage to clock under 11min again which had long gone since ORD. Forcing myself for a more intense training for improvement. U will not regret as long as u put in your best effort..
"我能为你煮东西，但我不能喂你吃东西。各人吃饭是各人饱，各人生死是个人事"
My Love Will Get You Home
溏心风暴
Without noticing, it already June.. This month will be a busy month for me, 2 sites of my office got power shutdown, need to standby on site over the weekends to do some testing and ensure all the M&E systems working normally, not to mention a lot of paper and preparation work had to be done beforehand.
Currently watching TVB drama "溏心风暴". A nice touching drama, local drama definitely cant compare with it. It about family ties and some people doing all sorts of scheming acts over family fortune. Heard the rating is very high during airing in hongkong. People say 戏如人生, 人生如戏, quite true. From the drama, notice a lot of things, no matter how hard the obstacle or failure a person faced, at the end of the road, family is still there for him to lean onto; when the child wear the graduate hat, the most happiest persons will be the parents, true?? I think so. Cant understand why some people can forgo family ties for the sake of money? I agree money is important but is it really that important??
15 more episodes to go!! Addicted to it liao...
看轻别人很容易，要摆平自己却很困难
