Rainy days....

Raining since yesterday, weather not bad, quite cooling. Yesterday night 6pm is like normal days 9pm, same darkness. Remind me of the days in Thailand where 6pm also look the same with cool breeze blowing. Wish I can be in the place like there when got sunshine and it also not hot.

But thinking I had to go to work in the rain is...... troublesome..... Making me drenched. Today is last day of the month, my last solo visit to all the sites. Had long talks with all the on site staffs, quite memorable.. 天底下没有不散的宴席 Heard from them my boss is actually the most demanding and high expectation of all the team managers in the company. Was it a good sign or bad??

"得而复失令人难受，但失而复得却令人格外惊喜，而最精彩处是你重新得到的再不是以前的东西，因你会以全新的态度去珍惜和看待它!"

同人不同命

Both doing AGM document. Her boss auto come over and ask if she dunno anything and slowly teach her how to do the budget and what each item means. For me, my boss throw all to me and let me slog my guts out. Dunno anything, I had to figure out on my own by looking at the papers. Haiz..... What to do...

Someone tell me that everyone got a pair of invisible wings that will bring him out from the trouble. Think I need a person that can share my joy and sorrow more than the wings. Are u the one I looking for?

"痛苦是与生俱来的，没人能幸免，那是一种常感不足的感觉，也是一种令你想到如可以这样，便会更理想的感觉，而当然这种"理想"，是永远不能圆满达致的"

缘

自从男孩毕业了，他就没有跟女孩联络了，不知不觉，已过八年。男孩每年都不会忘记女孩的生日，在生日那天，他都会传简讯给她，祝她生日快乐。男孩期待女孩能够跟他进入同一所学校，可是人算不如天算，那一天永远也没有到来。

这些日子，男孩从来没有忘记过女孩。脑海里一直出现已前发生的点点滴滴。最令男孩难忘的是他跟女孩在黑暗的夜空下走的那段很长的路，希望那段是一条无弛禁的路，永远地走下去。

转眼间八年已过去，男孩开始又跟女孩在网上聊天，渐渐地已成为他每天的一种习惯。男孩每天都期待着女孩上网，看到女孩出现在网上，男孩就会不知觉得高兴起来。男孩不知道他与女孩是否会有结果，只希望女孩能天天高兴，在背后默默地为她祝福。

"虽然牵的不是我的手，我真的不曾难过"

可以在八年后又重逢，难道说男孩和女孩之间的缘分还没散？

"有缘太短暂比无缘还残"

也许女孩不知，在八年前，她已经在男孩的心里面占了一个位子。


"鱼对水说：我哭了，但是你不会看见我的眼泪，因为我在水中。水对鱼说：我可以看见你的眼泪，因为你在我心中!"

隐形的翅膀 - 张韶涵

每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤 也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望

不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳 也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望

我终于 看到 所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻 歌声多嘹亮
我终于 翱翔 用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风 就飞多远吧

隐形的翅膀 让梦恒久比天长
留一个 愿望 让自己想象

Another weekend gone...

There goes another weekend... But this weekend is better than last. Had sakae last nite and dim sum this morning. Is a good weekend I can say plus my new job offering, hope the new job will bring me to greater heights. After that will only left is to find the "she" that I looking for....

Today is AHM. So fast 2 years passed since I run. Remember that time I took is 2 hr 14min for 21km with the 1st 15km continuous running. Those were the days.... Cant find any mood or reason to run such a long distance again...

Find quite a few nice software for my computer. Can say is a harvest weekend.

"人并不懂得珍惜其眼前所拥有的东西，直至当他失去拥有的一切，才惊觉曾拥有过的是多么的珍贵!"

YEAH!!!!!!!!

Receive the call from another job and they had offered me the post of facility engineer. Quite happy to been offered but I am more happy when they say "Can u leave your current job by next week? Any offset or salary in lieu of, we will pay for u." That surprise me and I tell them by next week I give them reply. Not long after, the call came again and ask me if I can confirm now and increase the salary for me. Monday will be going down to sign letter of appointment.

"狮子不能祈求过白兔的生活，大象也不能向老鼠那样生存在地下。人的命运，出生时就已注定了方向。这世界不是你想怎么样就能怎么样的，它不是为你存在的"

1 month already..

1 month has passed since my new job but it also mark I will be leaving in 12 days time. Thought my day going to end peacefully at 6pm, check my handphone at 6.05pm, saw 3 miss call which 2 were from boss. Big trouble liao, know my day not peaceful anymore. Luckily, I call back to the tenant and know lift break down. Then pick up the call from boss and I kanna screw for nothing. Say me give away his hp to the tenant who call him when I didnt even tell the tenant I got a boss. Order me to go down to see what is happening and give him a detail report of what happened. Try to find a cab but all cab seem missing. Rush down to the site and the lift technician also just arrived. Find out from the tenant that she got his number from the telephone list on the table and apologised she dont know that call him will result in so serious thing. Wth, I kanna screw just because of her accidentally call.

The happy thing is I went for interview and they straight away offer me the letter of appointment. It a job of assistant engineer in building sector looking after army camps, to make it simple, it a contractor job. All the expectation quite ok to me but I dont want to rush in making a decision. Then the job agency call me and ask for the outcome, I told her that the comapny is ready to offer me the job and she seem surprised. Should I accept???

Still waiting for another job reply... Dont want to be like after I accept this job then another job came offering... which always happen.

"人的一生要遇到同一个人的几率是非常小，所以有机会就要把握，宁可遗憾说过，也不要后悔没说"

Resignation

Tender my resignation today. A happiness come out from bottom of my heart. Boss try to hold me back but eventually respect my decision. If u like the job, u will do your best in it, that what my boss said which I believe in it. Looking forward for 5th Sept when my last day is. Meanwhile, preparing myself for the interviews and finish up all the outstanding work.

Although I am happy but there is sure sadness since I already make a 1 month+ stay there. Maybe this is call if there is a postive effect, it sure have a negative effect.

The onion theory:
How to cut an onion without dropping tears?
When u are cutting onion and tears started to flow out, turn your head, close your eyes and stop thinking about onions. Tears will be hold inside your eyes.
If u are sad and wanted to cry, turn your head, close your eyes and stop thinking about the sad stuff and sadness will slowly be gone.

"天空是神秘的深紫色，上方最亮的北斗星閃着恆久的光，为迷路的人指引着回家的路。再迷惘的人也不要担心，一定会走出迷宮的"

Finally make up the decision but when going to tender the resignation letter, the manager cant be found. He again say he was arranging for me to transfer me to site, at that moment, resignation gone out of my head till I received my frd sms, "If u want to resign, nothing can stopped u". Looking at this sms, wake me up. Why should I stay here when there might a better job outside more suitable for me. 舍得，舍得，不舍那会有得。

Receive a call in the late afternoon to arrange for a time for me to interview as a project coordinator. That is what I want to do and confirm can do better than the current one. Now just waiting for the interview and perform, shouldnt be much problem. Think my collegue hear that I intend to resign, and no people will takeover me till 19th Sept, then she start to kan chiong. Understand 1 phase "对敌人仁慈就是对自己残忍".

"人...往往不懂得珍惜身边的幸福，常常盲目地追求荒唐梦想，一旦幸福远去，才觉悟，好好珍惜身边爱你，疼你，关心你的人. 缘,也许只有今生，没有来世"

Decision??

After 4 wks, finally decided that I really unsuitable for the job, maybe it is not my cup of tea in the 1st place. Funny thing is my manager keep saying me not suitable for this job yet he dont let me transfer... Got a feeling that I am just a temporary replacement for the previous lady which is on 3 months leave. After she back, I think I will be kicked from the company.

I think I am offered this job not because I am suitable but is only me can start work in that crucial period. Imagine where got company ask u to start work 1st then sign letter of appointment a few days later...

1 of the sentence I find it very funny. "U cant survive if I post u to site (when the site have other 4 pple)" but he station me at HQ where I had to handle 5 sites...

Still remember that day I go interview,
Interviewer: U know MCST??
Me: Dunno. I more of technical side then management, paperworks.
Me: May I know what this job deal with what projects?? Residential, Commercial??
Interviewer: Hard to tell u when u dunno MCST.
After hearing this, I think this job has no much chance but yet they offered me when I knew nothing about MCST which is the most important for the job. What does that show??

1st day of work, the thing I heard is "u must learn fast coz the person u taking over is going on leave next week". I only a newcomer who know nuts about the job and expect me to learn it in 1 week??? Even soldier also need 3 months to learn the basic stuff....

I believe in 此处不留人，自有留人处, so decided to be a 千里马 and search for the correct 伯乐, so as to expertise my forte.

"U like to do that why u will do best in or u are best in it that why u like to do?"

Gals hv advantage over guys???

Do gals hv a better advantage over guys in all jobs except those technical type?? From wat i experience in my current job, gals hv an advantage. Using their 嗲 voice n talk then all e pple cannot also say can. Haiz....wat to do??? Who ask i am a guy?

"命运的安排,要你不快乐,你要逃避,也逃避不了. 不过,命运在你手上,你要改变它,不是不可以的. 问题是你愿不愿意"

Bad news...

Bad news of e day!!! I cant be transferred out....am i fated to stay here till i quit?? haiz... tt is my life.. when i want something, i cant get it. wat to do??? who can help me?? bidding my time here till i received another call for interview...

"每个人都有自己喜与不喜欢的人。你不需要勉强自己去讨好每个人。尽管做你想做的事，只要你心里知道你的决定是对的，将来就不会因为今天的决定而后悔"

A new design

Done some changes to my blog layout.. nt easy, it took me sometime to change the settings.. trial n error but eventually did it... 天下无难事，只怕有心人, true to some extend bah..

Finally found those songs tt i wanted.. so fast it is sunday again. Tmr need to go work again..haiz.. 陀枪师姐 also going to end soon, dun think got anymore nice tv show then. one of e phase from e show, "原来我爱的那个人不是他". aft going thru 1 big round, she found out tt e 1 she love most is actually nt e current 1, but is e 1 tt she break off with. mayb tis is call fate like to play with pple... 人要失去了才懂得去珍惜, TOTALLY AGREE.

"梦自己想梦的，去自己想去的，做自己想做的，因为生命只有一次，机会不会再来"

Unlucky day...

Quite suay today...Nt my fault also become my fault...Wat to do...haiz...From wat i seen n heard, i feel tt i nt e only one noe nth abt my job scope, is juz tt my team expectation is too high, kana complaints when e stuff i noe is more than the pple from other team...Other than different teams, the thing tt is different is they r gals... Gals hv more advantage in paper stuff?? Still waiting for my transfer, mayb i will had a better life over there?? Who noe.....

Today is also e last day for attachment students attached to e company. Seem like they had njoyed themselves thru out e process which is quite different from my attachment tt seem like everyday doing e same thing n wanted to leave asap....haiz....

Friday nite to me is also a boring nite. Nth much to do except watch some tv show. MSN also no one to talk to or i shld say those tt i want to talk to is offline... Saw some of e fireworks, quite nice but compared to hongkong firework festival, is still got a gap..

Still looking for e song "Dream" from Cranberries, cant find it anywhere.. anyone hv?? Just found back a song tt bring back memories, "Shain Twain - U still e one i love"........

"人的一生是无数的轮回, 记取经验与记忆的累计, 就可减少犹豫的光阴,也可避免选择的错误"

Happy National Day

Happy National Day!! It been 2 yrs since i participate in it.. so fast time has past. Seem like this year the parade section is not really good as compared to previous years. The thing that catch my interest is the fireworks, really nice but is only last a while... someone say to me before "nice things dun meant to last". i AGREE. Is there anyone out there that enjoy the fireworks as me???

My wish now is to watch a firework with the gal that i looking for.....

"人生原本就聚散无常,只要能珍惜最美好的片段,又何必在乎是聚是散,人和人之间的关系本來就是很微妙的东西,很难说上一个具体的形態來..."

No matter how...

Realise a thing, no matter how difficult ur life or day is, it will juz pass... it only a matter of how fast or slow.. Juz like someone tell me, "everything will be gone n it only left back memories, hope tt it will b fond memories".

Juz as i thot i was advancing, actually i am nt... Juz when i thot i was staying put, actually i am advancing slowly..... so am i staying put or advancing??? wat shld my nxt step be??

"从困难中爬出來，从失败中站起來，在挫折中学习，在错误中成长，从別人的讥笑中学会自愛，从鄙视中建立尊严，从不幸中感受恩典，从痛苦中认识快乐"

A Wake Up Call

A story found on some site:

During the month of September, a dear friend of mine lost her husband suddenly in an accident. The tragedy was a shock to everyone.

This accident was sudden and certainly unexpected. It drove home the realization that you just don't know when a loved one is no longer going to be with you. We sometimes take our love ones for granted, and we expect that they will be with us forever. However, as we all know, life does not work that way and sometimes we get a wake up call that shocks us and makes us stand back and realize how short life is.

In consoling her, I tried to imagine if I was in her shoes how would I feel. It was impossible to imagine what she was going through. What words do I say to help her?
Sometimes words just can not express our feelings. Sometimes our actions are much more meaningful than words. A hug can sometimes express more than our words will ever express. Sometimes, just being there to listen is more meaningful and helpful to people.

A SECOND WAKE UP CALL.
As I was leaving the funeral parlor, I ran into a Marilyn. Marilyn has been a true friend to me over the years. She is one of those friends who is with you in the good times and is always by your side in the bad times. She has a sense of humor that makes everyone laugh and she makes everyone feel at ease. We chit chatted for a few moments, and then she asked me how my job was. So I started talking and talking and talking (am sure she wished she had never asked, ha) I was having a stressful week with my job and I was telling her all the issues and how I was feeling. She listened to me as I was raving about my frustrations, then without saying a word, she took her hands and placed them on my face, and said to me, "But at least you had a day."
The touch of her hands on my cheeks, the calmness in her voice, and the words she spoke, "BUT AT LEAST YOU HAD A DAY", hit me like a ton of bricks. All the frustrations, all the stress that was building up inside of me - came to a complete stop.

Since that day, when I start feeling stressed, I remind myself of Marilyn's words - but at least I had a day! Things could be a lot worse, the stress of the situation always could be worse, but I am alive and I have a lot to be thankful for - so I shall not waste my days with stress and frustrations - Life is too short!

Lost

Seem like i always does the wrong stuff in the wrong time... Did the wrong job at a wrong time...buy the wrong phone at e wrong time... Now waiting for transfer, y cant i juz do wat i want... Forcing myself to drink something I dun like..haiz..Who can be the one behind me and share my joy n sorrow?? I am like a wandering soul at a crossroad dunno wat to do...

Everyone got their own problem.....I am troubled about work while my frd troubled abt his r/s...He is looking for his everlasting true love. But wat is true love?? How to make it everlasting?? Dun think there will b a definite ans..

"Dun be afraid to give up the good to go for the great"