Watch ocean twelve with jiawen n xiaoze. As usual, jiawen was late for 30mins. Wanted to watch e 7pm show but tickets sold out, then hv to watch e 10pm instead. E movie is average, nt as good as e 1st movie, ocean eleven. Words more than action.
So fast, a yr has passed. Tmr will b a new yr. But e present tat given to us is e tsunami. E death toll has reached a total of 125000, tragic. Bcoz of tis, live telecast of sentosa countdown is been cancelled. I think is unfair as e whole event is nt cancelled but only e telecast. Anywhere e world is unfair, doesnt matter if there is one more.

"Don't let the learning from your own experiences take too long. If you have been doing it wrong for the last ten years, I would suggest that's long enough!"

Whole day busy with chinese new year cookies. Manage to make it but still need more practices to perfect. Actually cooking is quite fun, dunno y pple only associate it with females. Next thing going to learn on my cooking list is mooncakes. Going to learn it on e oncoming mooncake festival. In juz a blink of eyes, chinese new year will b coming. 1 yr has passed so fast. Once gone, it over. Cherish wat u hv now n dun regret when it over.

"When defeat comes, accept it as a signal that your plans are not sound, rebuild those plans, and set sail once more toward your coveted goal."

Christmas Gathering

Juz gone for my poly frds christmas gathering. Nt much anticipating n happening, juz chat on how life getting on. Mayb is bcoz e persons involved r nt e one tat I hope to c.
Learnt tat xiaoze has got a job aft mths of civilian enjoyment. Good luck for his new job. Hope I can get a job soon also, if possible juz like his, near hse, salary ok, 5 days wk. Got my hair a new color, is time for a change since it is black so long. Trying new things as u will only live once.

"Do what you can, with what you have, where you are."

回到过去

　　学校放假了，校园又恢复了平静。没有了往日的喧哗，这里平静了很多。
　　
　　其他的学生都能够期待着开学，期待着和同学朋友们见面的那一天，但男孩却不能了，他已从这所学校毕业。回想起曾经的校园生活，一切似乎都是那么的难忘。在教室中一同学习，在操场上一同奔跑。所有的小事都那么的让人留恋，真不想离开这里……

　　还有她，B班的一个女生。曾经有一次去B班找人，恰巧碰到要出教室的她，男孩便产生了一种异样的感觉。从此，B班门口便多了男孩来回的身影。其实不为别的，就为了能够看一眼她。那是一种幸福，暗恋的幸福。有时候看不到她，心里就似乎堵堵的；但若是看到了她，便会十分高兴，整个人似乎都变得充满了活力。放学的时候，男孩便站在楼梯口向B班的方向张望。等她走过来下楼梯时，男孩就跟在她的后边，静静地欣赏她的背影。那时的男孩是幸福的。他真希望这阶梯能够变得很长很长，时间能够停下来，让男孩和她可以永远的这么走下去。可惜，三层楼很快就下完了。不过还是有机会的。因为她每天上学放学都要来回巴士站，所以男孩便在回家的路上和同学聊这说那，故意放慢脚步，以便等她。男孩还不时的朝后看看她是否来了。有时候同学问他：“你总回头看什么呢？”“没有什么，随便看看。”男孩总是这样回答，装作若无其事的样子。但不一会便忍不住再次偷眼向后看。

　　啊，她来了！穿一件白色上衣，蓝色牛仔裤，头发随意的飘动着。男孩沉醉了，她就像他心中的天使。不一会儿，她就走了过来，从男孩的身边轻轻过去。她似乎没有注意到他的存在,更没有因为男孩刚才对她的注视而放慢速度。刚才等待她的些许焦急和看到她后的那份喜悦，现在都变成了片片的失望，在男孩的心头上盘旋，只有目送她的身影远去。至于刚才和同学说些什么，男孩早已忘却了，心中只期待着下一次的相见...

　　学校的生活越到最后越是让人留恋，而消逝的也越快。转眼间他们都快要毕业了。他们是用倒记时的方式度过剩下的日子的。每个人似乎都对那里充满了无限眷恋之情，放学后经常徘徊于校园之中。回想着一同学习、游戏的时光。男孩也知道，在那里的时光已经不多，但他仍没有向她表白，男孩真觉的自己是个懦夫！剩下的日子里，老师们似乎也看出了他们对校园、对同学的感情，便撤消了那“不许与外班的学生来往”这一条禁令。于是，每天放学后男孩都去B班找熟人玩，其实是为了看她。这样，男孩每天见到她的次数便增加了许多，他自己也十分高兴。男孩认识了她们班的许多人，后来，男孩发现她也注意到了他，可能是因为男孩常去她们班的缘故吧。但他们之间仍没发生什么，男孩和她连话都没说过一句，只是知道了她的名字。那一段短暂的时光男孩认为是最美好的。

　　然而，分别的那天还是到了。这对男孩来说是残酷的、无法接受的事实。他知道，一旦毕业，他也许就再也见不到她了。但没办法，他只能无助的接受了现实。伤心的痛只能让时间去抚平。

　　夜，静悄悄，男孩带着对过去的怀念进入了梦境。他渴望在梦中能够再次与她相会。耳边似乎还停留着刚才的歌声。“想回到过去，试着让故事继续，至少不再让你离我而去...”

"How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."

Did some hse cleaning today, clean all e windows as it getting dirty till e state of cant seeing outside clearly. Think havent clean them for wks or even mths. Cleaning windows bring back my memories of area cleaning of my unit. Time really flies. So fast become civilian again. Juz like yesterday going to NTU, find e roads farmiliar as I had gone there for my Biathlon training during my poly times. E most unforgettable is e 800m - 1km up slope. Imagine aft swimming for 800m, u still hv to run up tat slope tat nv seem ending, dunno how i manage to do it tat time.

I used to say, "Things cost too much." Then my teacher straightened me out on that by saying, "The problem isn't that things cost too much. The problem is that you can't afford it." That's when I finally understood that the problem wasn't "it" - the problem was "me."

Interview

Interview is juz like selling a product, boast urself until like 天上有，地下无. Went for an interview today, lasted for 45mins. E working environment nt bad, NTU, but nt for e job. E thing I dun like is e 5.5 working days for alt wk. Human r so confusing juz like me, wanted job but at same time dun want. Got job, got money but no freedom. No job, no money but got freedom. Life is so contradicting. Poly times still e best. Want to work then work, no restriction.

"Find something you love to do and you'll never have to work a day in your life."

Drunk

Drank 1/2 bottle Jim Beam last nite, got drunk but still conscious(semi drunk), not to e state of kelvin seah, tat useless guy. Drunk is nt tat bad as for e moment ur brain is numb n free from trouble, no things to think abt. Drunk can make u bold also, those who go to kelvin seah party shld noe.

"The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized--never knowing."

I think I had did e worst thing.

Gathering

Been some time since I last blog coz everyday is e same, nothing to write. Recently addicted to an online game, acRO (Ragnarok Online). Make some changes to e site. Taste hv change, simple is also a beauty, so decide to take away e flash. Juz come back from my sec sch lifesaving gathering, saw a lot of farmiliar faces but yet forget their names. Saw her again. She look e same, pretty n cute, 6 yrs.... in juz a blink of e eyes. If time can turns back, I will cherish e chance I had, but too bad. Most of my frds had cars, is it they rich or I poor?? All going for their degree except for me. Think degree is e trend nowadays, but I still prefer experience to paper. Receive a call yesterday for interview on next mon at NTU. Dunno wat is e position i going for, sent too much resume out already, think is bldg technician. Going to save for my diving course on tis coming feb. Found e 3rd guy for e diving course beside xiaoze n me. Heard fm my frds, she going for diving course also. Mayb try to persuade her to join me for e course also. E more i try to forget, e more she keep appearing in ur mind. 命运弄人

"There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is."