Campus Superstar 2009

Campus superstar come to a final last night. Again it proven the phase as in the previous few competition, 唱的好并不代表一切. Although the boy singing is good but obviously he still lose out to the gal, but in the end, the boy still win due to public voting. At the end of the day, to win a competition isnt depend on your ability but whether the public want to give money to support u. When two fishes fighting, the one that gain benefit will be the fisherman, singing competition is just a cover for earning money? Hahaaa

This is the same as the working society, no matter how well u can perform, if the boss dont like u, u still cant go far... Realistic and practical world...

阿桑

Human life is fragile... When everything seem so smooth, taiwanese singer, 阿桑, was diagonsed with last stage cancer and after half a year of battle with the illness, she lost yesterday... She was just barely 34 years old.. Life is so unpredictable.........

2 April 2009

It had been 2 months since my last post. Nothing much had happened beside wasting some money at the recent IT show. Bought a rmvb player for the family but currently is used by my dad every night to watch HK TVB drama. Also on the purchased list is a laptop which also ended up my bro having it. Although money is spent, but is worthwhile when ties can be brought closer.

I had come to a conclusion with my colleague today, the current job is suitable for those inefficient, non ambitious or waiting for retirement. Too bad i dont fit into any of the above criteria. No wonder my bank boss say I am wasting my time here. Even my ex colleague remind me that is time to switch since the current job prospect is not that good due to under a poor manager. Is time to take into deep consideration then.....

His favourite song

娃娃的故事

有一个娃娃 咿呀咿咿呀
学妈妈说话啦
鸟儿它要飞 叽喳叽叽喳
喊着离开家啦

门前的老树舍不得呀 窗前的小花舍不得呀
亲爱的妈妈舍不得呀 泪儿已经流下

门前的老树我想它呀 窗前的小花我想它呀
亲爱的妈妈我想她呀 把笑容献给妈妈

Sad.....

Today is the last day that I will be carrying him. Actually 2 weeks ago on 2nd Feb night, due to some mishap, he accidentally knock onto the edge of the table while trying to get some chinese new year goodies, and got a cut on the right eyebrow, resulting 2 stitches. This is also the beginning of him been take care by his family. Keeping the finger cross for this 2 weeks, decision finally came this morning, he will be taken care by his family in the future. The feeling in this 2 weeks quite faded since I didnt see him but it came rushing back stronger when I carried him for a little while just now. Maybe my sixth sense told me that it probably the last time I will be seeing him..... Sometime escaping from reality is better than facing it... I rather dont know the decision even though the chances of him coming back is slim, but at least there is still a small hope. Now I know the decision, my smallest hope is also extinguished....

This is quite sad as he had been with me for 9 months... I will miss the moments:
- the joyful smile
- pulling my leg to ask me to carry him
- the "greeting" when he saw me
- the window shopping that we done together
- the food we share together
- the mischievous snatching of my food
- hitting my laptop to play songs for him
- the afternoon nap we took
- the curiousity of him looking around when at the street
- the mess he created in the whole house, throwing of toys and bears everywhere
- and many many more...

From him, I learnt how to carry a baby, the baby language, how to feed a baby and the patience and attention needed for a baby. I cant say I had fully master it but it will become a part of my life learning process.

People tend not to treasure what they had and only regret when it gone..... Although I understand this statement but I had let it repeated a few times...

"Thanks for the wonderful moments that u had given me, wish u had a happy childhood!!
Good bye......."

Love was here

I can't make peace, nor let go
Because I've seem love truly bloomed
I want to wait, keep waiting
Waiting for that night
I came back from rememberance

The moment you embraced me
I felt like I flew to the sky
When I gradually descended
I was no longer me
I had a dream, I was in a dream

Love was here, it was so beautiful, so strong
Rammed through my live with cheers
Even regret had conceded into a treasured smile
Love was here, it made me complete, made me happy
How could I easily let it go
I don't want to be released, I'm only afraid of missing it
I just want to wait for you to come back to love me

Loneliness is loud, I'm not scared
Because I can only hear the longing for you
The world is very big, it can fit
My little, foolish, stubborn faith

I can't remember whether you had made any promise
It's not important
Either way, I would wait for, wait in the dream for
My most only, most beautiful dream

Love was here, it was so beautiful, so strong
Rammed through my live with cheers
Even regret had conceded into a treasured smile
Love was here, it made me complete, happy
How could I easily let it go
I don't want to be released, I'm only afraid of missing it
I just want to wait for you to come back

If I need to use miracle to call you back
Then let the tear evaporate and come down as snow flakes
Melt in the love with me

开工!!!

Chinese New Year is over in the blink of eyes. Today back to work again, but anyway it is quite slack. The atmosphere of chinese new year is not as strong as in the past. It just seem like another day that dont need to go to work, maybe this is the feeling of growing up. Luck is quite good as I win some money over mahjong during the holidays. The next holiday will be a few months from now.

Coming to work aimlessly everyday is my current daily routine. Maybe is time to find a better oppounity to further expand my horizon, search for a greener pasture, since I already got my degree. The current appointment I holding dont seem to satisfy my expected salary and job appointment. All the surrounding people around me had been saying that market is bad, hard to switch jobs but I love challenges, doing the possible out of the impossible. Haha. So I had decided within this year, I hope to achieve two things; first, find a better job which will be good if it is of management level; second, meet the gal that can share my joy and sorrow.

梁靜茹 - 沒有如果

One of the meaningful song from one of my favorite singer..

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當借口
那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什么 還怕什么
快牽起我的手

有人說
世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死
而是我就站在你面前
你卻不知道我愛你

我常說
如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住
那世界末日已來到
不需要等到地球毀滅掉的那天

如果我說 愛我沒有如果
錯過就過你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當借口
那愛是不是有一點弱

如果我說愛沒有如果
真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什么 還怕什么
快牽起我的手

2009!!!!

First post of 2009 even though it is an 8 days ago event. Many people is talking about new year resolution but I dont seem to know what I want to achieve since after I got my degree last year. Changing a new job? Getting a better pay? Finding a gal that is destined to enter my life? Hahahaaa.. Fate will decide..

I can say today is one of the fulfilling day I had at work. It has been quite some time since I had this feeling. Start of the day, thinking it was just another boring day, I met my ex-colleague for kopi and after which alarms start to come in. First of all, water leak alarm where I self improved to understand better how the water leak control panel works and narrow to where the fault is. Second, toilet water tap burst causing water to overflow into the office and one of the IT critical room. But it doesnt cause a panick to me, remaining calm and solve all the problem one by one. After which, entrance door suddenly give way and dropped, again I managed to provide temporary solution while waiting for vendors to come and repair. When everything is coming to an end, I noticed it already time to knock off.

After working for some time, I find myself already start to remain calm no matter what alarm is been activated. Panick is always the cause of worsening the problem. Is it due to I getting more experienced just like playing game where the character keep levelling as time goes by?? Hahaaa.. Time will tells..

虽然你讨厌一个人，但却又能发觉他的优点好处，像这样子有修养的人，天下真是太少了

永邦 - 你是我最深爱的人

Suddenly come across this song... It will be a nice song play during the wedding... Remember first time hearing this song is during my secondary school times.. It so fun and enjoyable but I didnt treasure what I had and regret after I lost it... Last night had a nice msn chat with her again since quite some time ago, will there be another one coming? I hope so...

家好月圆 (3)

Is there really any family like the one inside the drama, 家好月圆, whole family living in harmony, full of joke and laughter? I can only say mine is definitely the opposite, sometime rather work 24/7 or post to overseas rather than staying in this house.. Now the only reason that can attract me to come home is a cute baby... Whenever I come home from work, he will laugh and crawl to me, stretch out his arms to hint me to carry him.. His laughter will let one forget the troubles at work.. If he not here, I rather stay out instead of facing all the endless quarrels........... What a "wonderful" family I had...

家好月圆 (2)

A song that been sang by the family many times in 家好月圆. The lyrics is very meaningful..

家好月圆

Finished watching 家好月圆 till 3am last nite. Had been catching this 40 episode drama for a few weeks. Singapore drama just cant match hongkong... The love between the family is quite touching, helping each other when they faced difficulities. This TVB drama also won quite a numerous awards in hongkong. Recommended for those drama lovers.

A touching love relationship inside the drama:
管家仔 and 于素秋 had been childhood mates and had feelings for each others since young. But they were been separated due to 于素秋 was been send to aboard for study. After a few years, 于素秋 graduated and came back and meet 管家仔 again. Despite been still deeply in love with her, he suppressed his declaration to her due to she been a doctor and he just a confectionary baker. Just when 管家仔 decide to declare his feeling for 于素秋, she met another doctor, 凌至信, whom she took a liking and rejected his declaration. They are happily together till she find out that 凌至信 had a girlfriend whom had gone through hardship with him during his study at London. To prevent herself from been the third party, 于素秋 considered to break out with him. She finally decided the break out when 凌至信 decided to migrate to London with his girlfriend. During this sad period, 管家仔 always stay by her side to comfort her. Finally his determination is been paid off with 于素秋 accepting his love. But fate like to play with people, 凌至信 appear again. 管家仔 and 于素秋 relationship is been put to test again when she learnt that 凌至信 migrate to London is to accompany his girlfiend for her illness treatment and died soon after reaching due to a treatment mishap. 凌至信 also lied to 于素秋 that he had been married just to make her forget about him. Upon learning the reasons, 于素秋 is confused of who she should been together with. Signs and hints show that 于素秋 and 凌至信 reconciled. Thinking it is fated that teenagers love will not be the same after years of separation but the drama at the end made a twist and 于素秋 and 凌至信 together is just a smoke screen, 于素秋 eventually choose 管家仔.

有情人终成眷属，does this eventually appear in real life? Do feelings still the same after a few years?

IPPT cleared!!!!

This is the happiest moment of the whole ICT. No need to worry about IPPT for year 2009 but constant exercise will still be doing to maintain my fitness. Learnt my lesson when I almost had to go Remedial Training due to last minute inadequate training...

Reservist over!!

18 days of high key ICT finally completed. Quite mentally stressed when everyday need to be in camp for 13 hours of shift duty. The only sentence in my mind during that period is "I don't want to lead an army life..."

The glad thing is I am in the winning unit for most of the missions in this exercise and I had cleared my IPPT on my 2nd tries, which will also mean that I had cleared this and next year window at 1 shot. On failing my 1st try, I thought I am going to Remedial Training which is unflexible as only 2 schedules given by SAF to choose from.. But is relieved that my unit "forced" me to go for 2nd try on the last day of ICT when others all had out-pro on the previous night. Heng!!!

6 more ICT to go with the next on next year june. The sooner I complete, the faster the IPPT nightmare will go away. If nothing goes wrong, 2014 will be the year I completed repay what I "own" SAF. Hahaaa...

"A group of sheep lead by a lion is more feared than a group of lions lead by a sheep"

Future Marina Downtown

Still under construction. Will be ready in 2010. Who know that will be my future workplace...

Graduate!!!

Finally my degree course finish!! Now juz waiting for the official paper to come in November from UK. Still havent figure out wat is my nxt step, I only noe now everyday slacking inside office.. Wat need to be done for the bank (my workplace) had also been completed, engineering report also been submitted to my boss.. Human are juz like this, too free complain, too busy also complain.. haiz..

Long time never come back to this blog, surprise got so many pple visit and leave comment.. Really appreciated!!

Time passed so fast, 1 yr ago still slogging for this degree course and it juz went over so fast. Now looking at my colleague slogging in the same course, refresh my memories of the "hardship". Haha..
Working for Barclays also more than 2 years, time to jump ship for a better pay since of my new paper?? Hahaaa.. Time will tells..

Exam over!!!!!

2nd semester exam finally over, 2 more semester to go!! 3 months havent post anything, 3 months say short, nt that short, say long, nt that long also, but quite a few changes within this period. Become one of the lead engr in the engineering team, overtaking a few of the seniors. But when a person is too outshine, he will poise a threat to his manager, especially like my current newly promoted manager. Most of the newly joined engrs beginning to complain abt their pay low and company benefit. Capability nt even shown out, yet still complaining this and that. My only advice to them: when u want to buy a large pair of shoe, u must see if ur feet is big enough to wear.

"诚实的面对你内心的矛盾和污点，不要欺骗你自己"

881

Watched 881 last nite. A few months liao since I last entered a cinema.. The movie not bad, quite touching despite been a local production, one of the best local movie I can say. The whole movie is about the story of 7th month getai singer, the hardship faced by them.. Especially touching in the ending part when papaya both sang the last song 十二莲花 together before the small papaya died...

"要克服对死亡的恐惧，你必须要接受世上所有的人，都会死去的观念"

3 weeks

It has been exactly 3 weeks since my last post. Many things had happened during this period..
- Superior had been transfer officially to other site tomorrow, left me alone handling the whole site while waiting for a new guy to come. But me not happy when I received the news, feeling myself still incapable in charge of the whole site even though for the past 1 month+ I had been doing it alone.. Somemore my site is the front office, the most critical area in the whole asia pacific..
- Work has been quite smooth sailing but not for study, family and relationship..
- National day has also passed, seem like I just finish my NDP and GOH parade yesterday..
- Had an increment but still not up to my expectation.. Satisfy in the way that another senior guy 3 years older and more experienced than me is also drawing the same salary.. Make me wonder is I expect too much??? How I hope salary will increase proportional with my workload..
- Change my smartphone to my pdaphone since 3 weeks and getting used to it..
- A new ntu grad join us today as tech admin, supporting all the diploma engineer like me. It must be a joke.. How long can she stay???
- Make a decision 3 weeks ago, decided to raise white flag. Now concentrate on my job and studies and last but not least, my training/workout..
- 2 more weeks will be my exam, now still preparing my assignment, not yet start my revision.. haiz...
- Blog song has also changed based on my current mood..
- Seventh month has also started, need to pray sincerely to hope no unexplainable alarms activate. Sometime u just cant dun believe it, which happen too many times at my site.
- Been 重视 at my job, given many chances to perform and I had not disappointed any of them but I still not feeling happy at the very least.. why??? I also dunno..

Song of my current stage:
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可

Campus superstar result: I expect Huixian and Keely to be in the finals. Is so good to be young....

"因果不曾亏欠过我们什么，所以请不要抱怨"